Elloyd99

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Elloyd99

Her
          
          I hurt you. 
          I hurt you with my selfishness.
          But this is not about me, it's about 
          You.
          If it was about me then I should've been 
          Better. 
           I should've tried less to hurt you.
          Tried less to please you. 
          Tried less to make things right.
          I should've been
          Me. No. Not me.
          Me is not good or better or kinder.
          Me is selfish and clueless,
          Useless. 
          Me could never have been there for you.
          You didn't deserve all the bad things.
          I should've seen a better way to help you. 
          Maybe if I had been less of me,
          This guilt at all the pain you suffered would
          Disappear. 
          This guilt that's like a viscous ooze,
          In my heart. My black, cold, useless heart.
          That had only ever hurt you.
          If I could,
          I'd do it all differently.
          But,
          Wouldn't everyone?
          I may be cold, bloodless 
          Useless,
          But you're not.
          You are bright like the
          Sun.
          You deserve the good, the kind, the better.
          The little flakes of delight that glitter
          Like angels. That show you affection. 
          That prove you aren't worthless.
          But I am still selfish.
          I bet you can tell. 
          You can see that I haven't changed.
          You that knew me so well,
          Would shun me now. 
          Not,
          Because you are a
          Bad person
          But
          Because you are
          Good. 
          I treated you so 
          Cruelly. 
          I hurt you so
          Badly.
          All with the best intentions.
          They would never know that
          I 
          Loved
          Her.

Elloyd99

Soar: 
          
          Stare. People stare. That's what people do.
          When they know.
          When they suspect.
          When they don't know.
          Society always stares before it judges.
          But they shouldn't judge. 
          They always say we've moved on.
          We've advanced. 
          We've grown. 
          We haven't. 
          People still stare. People still judge.
          They always know how to hurt you, 
          How to drive you back in your box
          Like some sort of animal. Like you're going
          To reek havoc on their perfect little world.
          But that shouldn't stop you.
          Shouldn't keep you chained up.
          Locked in their cage of disgust.
          Humans are birds. Born to be free.
          People are sheep who have yet to learn how to
          Soar.
          Break out.
          Grab my hand.
          Fly.

Elloyd99

You and Them:
          
          They watch, they always watch you
          They want to know you, to see you.
          The mindless chatter, the niceties that spread
          From ear to ear. The endless searching,
          seeking. (I hate all that crap)
          They trap you in, wanting to know-
          Encasing you in with their curiosity.
          Try.
          Try to get them out of the house so
          They won't know what you're up to. And
          Let me in. Let me inside. I
          Want to know you, for you. Not
          For curiosity. Let us learn together,
          Escape together. Hand in hand we
          Run and drift
          Into the clear sky
          Enthralled in each other.
          Forever Alone.