MoonMan222

@girlwiththecurls_ yeah and it kinda comes back to if we’re going to be together we should do it the right way. And that’s not to say we won’t make mistakes and reach out along the way but I think we can do better moving forward. I do want you to hit me up if you’re ever single that’s for sure 

@MoonMan222 right no I wouldn’t want you to start a relationship with someone still involved with me I’d want you to be able to give it your all. I think I’m just really lost and I def avoid it by just talking to you instead of dealing with it which isn’t fair but with school always looming it’s overwhelming at baseline. Again you’re right it doesn’t make it right. I do hope at some point I figure it out and I’m happy and I’d genuinely love to be with you just you. Maybe when I’m officially a doctor someday and no longer practically crying panicking on rotations lol it’d be better all around then w you

@girlwiththecurls_ I do appreciate that and was hoping you’d wish me a happy birthday. As far as the “strategy” for me it’s just taking an objective look at the situation. No matter how you look at it it’s not morally right to do what we did/are doing and I realized I’m not proud of the actions/decisions I have made over the last couple years. No matter how good it feels, it just doesn’t make it right. Also, when I do meet the right person I don’t want to have this secret relationship with you at any point during it because that just sets a bad foundation from the beginning. You are married and I’m not going to allow myself to fantasize my future with a married woman. You made an obligation/decision and I am not going to get in the way of it. So those are my thoughts

@girlwiththecurls_ it’s okay you don’t need to apologize. I just keep coming back to knowing it’s not the right thing. You’re married and I have to accept/respect that. I’m not perfect so I give in sometimes but I’m doing my best to be better 

@MoonMan222 Sorry, I think I get my hopes up when we talk again. It’s hard to adjust to not. I always wanna share all my thoughts and how my day’s going and the highlights and the lowlights. But you’ve told me you need space and I’ve done a shitty job at giving you that so I’m sorry. Always hope you’re happy & doing well & selfishly wanting to make your day even better like how you do mine

@MoonMan222 oh forgot to tell you I passed my internal medicine shelf exam

@girlwiththecurls_ love that mindset and I’ll do the same <3 it’s not easy but easy isn’t what we’re going for. I’ll talk to you soon <333

@MoonMan222 Ironically the church service today was about prayer and fasting and giving something up and instead turning to prayer. So all the times we aren’t talking like how we have been I’m gonna try to use that time instead to get closer to God and see if that helps bring me some guidance in how to handle everything. Miss you dearly <3

@girlwiththecurls_ the love I have for you is inexplicable (how bout that word) and to talk and act like we’re dating when we’re together is the best feeling in the world but when I come back to reality and you’re not there it’s tough for me to handle. I’m sure we’ll be back to talking very soon because I miss you as soon as we hang up the phone but just a little break might be good. Maybe it’ll help with making a decision 
            
            I miss you already <3

@girlwiththecurls_ that’s okay I’m almost out of this meeting then I can talk :) 

@MoonMan222 good morning, sorry missed your morning commute. Gonna go back to hot shots coffee for round 2 :)

@girlwiththecurls_ perfect sounds good just call whenever :) 

@girlwiththecurls_ aww that’s cool. You should start playing for the shop I bet people would love that :) keep grinding but if you need a break I have a long drive <3

@MoonMan222 it's called crooked tree. When I looked up some more places last night it came up and I figured I'd give it a try. Currently sitting next to the piano in the room :)

Oh cool :) which one? 

@girlwiththecurls_ however hard you want it, you get it ;) 

@MoonMan222 loveeeee the visual, yeah pump extra hard for me ;)

@girlwiththecurls_ it’s all good just wanted to offer :) keep working hard, definitely going to be thinking about you which might make the workout even more sweaty 

@girlwiththecurls_ miss you I hope you're feeling better today <3

Ugh yeah that’s a lot of added stress and I know it’s easier said than done but you have to try your best to focus on what is your #1 priority which is the test. Fuck everything else that’s going on, bet on yourself because you know deep down that you can pass this damn test. I know you can do it too as long as you stay focused on what is truly important right now. I love you keep doing a great job, work hard and trust God <3 

@girlwiththecurls_ haha definitely your beige flag ;) just a heads up I’m going to bed early to try and get a legit night of sleep. Send me all the pictures and videos you want, spam me <3

@MoonMan222 I might be running late but I can always count on Jenna to be running later

@MoonMan222 lol so proud of you but yeah just wanted to hear your voice :)

@MoonMan222 damn I wish I could have so bad

@girlwiththecurls_ I’ll post one soon. We won 5-0. It’s always really cool playing there I wish you could’ve seen it

@MoonMan222 I can't wait to hear how the game went. I kept looking for any pics :)

@girlwiththecurls_ call me this morning if you can 

@MoonMan222 dang that is gonna be a long day. Def should be fun though :) excited to hear how it goes

@girlwiththecurls_ it starts at 6 but I have to get there at like 4. It’s gonna be a long day but it’ll be fun