Deyswrites

A very very happy new year dear Dee and ajushii jiju
          Hope you both have great year ahead
          With vigour and joy, strength and never ending compassion for each other
          Stay happy and healthy and blessed you both ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Indeed, there were moments I needed respite, and I'm truly grateful to have an overbearing umbrella shielding me from stormy trials at my immediate disposal, a cocoon to retreat to when chapters of life become suffocating, a sycamore tree to rest under when the lessons became too rigorous. 
          
          But the person I am immensely grateful and proud above all is me! The one that endured it all on her own terms, through her own failures, and by her own trials and errors. 
          
          I chose to review, reset, and repeat.
          
          2024, you taught me so much, and I’ll always be grateful for you. I don’t know if I could have experienced it any other way, but I do know that I wouldn’t have learned it any better. 
          
          Thank you for being the best teacher I could ever ask for. You've been the one who make me realise once again that knowledge is useless unless it's met with wisdom. And the very wisdom that came from experience will always make me cherish you the most in memories!
          
          

Dear 2024,  
          
          You've been the most ruthless mentor of my life by far! You were both the cruelest and the kindest year of my existence. Punishing and rewarding in equal measure, you taught me lessons I thought I already knew. In truth, I had been fooling myself with pretenses and facades.  
          
          You transformed me from a whining, "Why only me?" child into an "Everything that is bound to happen will happen anyway" adult. You taught me something I never thought I could ever master:
          
          GRATITUDE!!!
          
          
          You humbled my arrogance in ways I never expected, forcing me to confront hard truths about myself. You showed me the real meaning of being "on your own." Though I always prided myself on being self-reliant, you redefined what truly being self-dependence means for me.  
          
          You taught me how to remain indifferent yet curious about human nature. You showed me how life can be both insignificant and profoundly important. You taught me how to trust wisely and where to place my trust. You revealed the stark contrast between words and actions, exposing snide remarks masked in honeyed tones.  
          
          You taught me so much, but above all, you taught me to be grateful. I am grateful for everyone and everything I encountered this year. I am grateful for the unbearable losses and the lessons they carried. I am grateful for my unbridled emotions and my calculated reactions. I am grateful for the people who secretly wished for my downfall while cheering me outwardly, it helped me filter them from my life and saved me further heartbreak.  
          
          I am grateful for broken promises and abandoned connections because they taught me that true care doesn't require words or constant reassurance. I am grateful for the misconceptions people developed about me, as they forced me to reflect on my own questionable choices. And I am even grateful for the evils that occurred as they were blessings in disguise. 

And that’s a bitter reality. I observed that in the race to be relatable, empathetic, kind, and helpful, we often forget that everyone’s battles are different! No matter how similar they may seem on the surface, everyone’s reasons are different, everyone’s decisions are different, and everyone’s lessons are different too! I realized that no matter how much you want to understand or relate to someone, you can’t! Their struggles are totally different, no matter how similar they seem to yours...
          
          This very thought lifted a heavy weight from my chest! A weight I was unknowingly bearing upon my soul—the weight of regrets, the weight of unsaid complaints, the weight of disappointments, the weight of shattered hopes and crumpled feelings, the weight of my mistakes, the weight of my bad decisions, the weight of my failures, and especially the weight of not being enough... 
          
          As I realized, whatever I made of my life was my battle to fight, and no one else can relate to what made me the person I am today! No one could, nor can anyone, choose otherwise for me! It automatically lifted all the expectations I had towards others. It made me realize that absolutely no one can provide me with the comfort and empathy that I could provide myself.It gave me the freedom to embrace my mistakes rather than regret them. It made me wear my failures instead of being embarrassed by them. It made me cherish the decisions I made after a bloodbath between my heart and soul, and absolutely no one can understand that! 
          
          No one actually has to!
          
          In the end, it’s just me and my flawed yet content personality... I might still struggle in trying to fit into the standards of what people perceive as the "perfect" person, but I know now that I am content! 
          
          I am who I am! With no regrets and absolutely no expectations!

I always have confidence that I could understand humans better. I could comprehend their vast choices, values, traditions, decisions, nature, characters, and various beliefs. Maybe this confidence stemmed from my profession or my limited experience in life? I believed I had the ability to relate to contrasting human emotions because, perhaps, I hadn’t found anyone to relate to when I was in desperate need of one. Or maybe I thought that, being at the receiving end of fate, I gained some kind of expertise in this genre.
          
          But lately, I’ve found myself failing at it miserably! To add another feather to my colorful cap of experience, I realized that no matter how much fate, my reckless mistakes, my failures, my accomplishments, my advantages, disadvantages, hopes, and disappointments have taught me, I still couldn’t relate to anyone!
          
          Actually, no one could!

Tum the ya khushboo hawaon mein thi?
          Tum the ya rang saare dishaaoon mein the?
          
          Tum the ya roshni raahoon mein thi?
          Tum the ya geet goonje fizaaon mein the?
          
          Tum the mile ya mili thi manzilen?
          Tum the ki tha jaadoo-bharaa koi samaan?
          
          Do pal ruka khwabon ka karavaan,
          Aur phir chal diye tum kahaan, hum kahaan…
          Do pal ki thi ye dilon kii daastaan,
          Aur phir chal diye tum kahaan, hum kahaan…

@_TamaS_ That's so unjust coming from the flagbearer of justice.

@Daikicelestine you're banned mister! 

There are always two sides to everything. 
          
          
          
          Heaven exists as much as hell does.  
          
          Hope lives where dreams shatter.  
          
          The will stands where luck fades.  
          
          Good exists just as bad does.  
          
          Health breathes where sickness lingers.  
          
          Love blooms where hate once stood.  
          
          Happiness dances in the shadow of sorrow.  
          
          For every low, there’s a high waiting to rise.  
          
          For every failure, a new win quietly waits.  
          
          
          
          But we humans, tend to believe in the side that suits our hearts.  
          We deny the very need for the other side, failing to see that without it, the side we choose would have no meaning.  
          It’s only when both sides merge into one, blending together into the big picture, that life starts to make sense.  
          It’s worth living for, worth fighting for.  
          A balance of contrasts brings motivation, understanding, deeper belief. A balance that two poles hold to keep us going and thriving.
          
          But we get caught up in the flip of the coin, wishing for heads, missing the beauty of tails.  
          Every head is empty without its tail...
          
          
          
          Just like life holds no meaning without death!!! 
          

There are moments when I find myself wondering what life would have been like without you. What if you weren’t here, by my side, through it all? I imagine how the journey would unfold without your presence, without your voice in my ear, guiding me. Where would I be? And where would you be? I think about what life would look like if we were apart?
          
          What it would feel like to face the world without your constant care and love, without the security of your warmth and the shield of your support. At times, I even wonder what it would be like without your nagging or scoldings. But I guess I want to be selfish for the first time in my life. As in moments as such, I realize something profound! That it would all be empty. It would be like existing without truly living, like wandering aimlessly in a world without meaning. Like being born and dying without a purpose, drifting without direction. 
          
          You are the reason my life has meaning. You brought color to my once-grey world, light to my darkest nights. You made my existence not just a passage of time, but something filled with purpose. And when I think about leaving, I realize it's not that I want to go... it’s that I would want to stay, because of you, because of "US"!
          
          People like you should be celebrated, not just on the day you were born, but every second of every day. I may not say it enough, but you are the center of my gravity. My world revolves around you, and even when the balance tilts… when things get chaotic, pulling me away from my peace… I'm lost without you. Like a star without its axis, uncertain of where to go, but knowing I can’t be whole without you guiding me. 
          
          Thank you for being my anchor, for being the force that keeps me grounded and reminds me every day that life has meaning. You are everything. The unsaid prayer which came true. The Christmas miracle I wasn't waiting for!
          
          
          Happy Day of Existence Avenger!
          ♥️♥️♥️