"Hush little baby 
Don't you cry
Don't cut your arms 
Don't say goodbye
Put down that razor
Put down that light
It may be hard 
But you'll win this fight"

Fake friends hurt, being in love with one of your bestfriends hurts. Thats everyday life,i get it. Having someone talk you out of suicide more than once, it hurts. The feeling they only want to help because they dont want to feel guilty....