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“  what  ??      non   non  ,      amour  ,     i  meant  it  in  an  affectionate  way  !!      „      he  was  frantic  ,      possibly  more  than  he'd  ever  been  in  his  life  .      “  i  am  not  scared  of  you  ,     i  meant  that  everything  you  do  is  really  nice  and  and  —  „

@racerisms 
            
            "you  ..  "  and for once  ,  the stone faced mask he wore crumpled completely.  it wavered and shook until he was openly frowning  ,  anguish clear in his eyes.  "you think   ..   /  I  /   would kill you  ..  ?  you're  —  you're scared of  ..  me?"

@racerisms 
            
            "I don't know.  I've been this way since I was young.  if there's a reason behind it  ,  I don't remember."

@racerisms   /     spit me out or I'm taking him away..

@sidearmz- 
            
            ／  too bad <33

@racerisms   /     don't eat me???

@turbulenxe   /     LET'S GOOOOO

/ he’s here..

@turbulenxe   /     MOTHEERR!!  I love seonghwa

11 :  still needs things explained to him sometimes.  he has a hold on his own destructive tendencies and why things like that aren't usually accepted.  when it comes to watching what he says around people?  not so much.  has definitely made his fair share of enemies just because he said the wrong thing.
            
            12 :  if he does end up getting closer to someone  ,  he's no better than a dog.  he will attach himself to their hip and look for their approval in everything.  not something he openly does while in public  ,  but when alone he'll just directly ask if he did good.
            
            13 :  he will  LOVE  hugs once he finally wraps his head around them.  has probably been hugged like once in his life and he definitely punched that person.

1 :  not one to show much emotion  ,  if any at all.  
            
            2 :  he knows the do's and dont's of the world now.  he's not going to fight someone just because he can.  he injures people only if absolutely necessary.  the problem lies with his careless behavior towards his own health.  being hurt doesn't really matter to him.
            
            3 :  he hasn't managed to stay completely off grid  ,  obviously.  a camera was bound to pick him up eventually.  he just never lets them get too far when they try to drag him back.
            
            4 :  the group he was with wasn't anything official.  it was government controlled  ,  but they were there to deal with the unethical things.
            
            5 :  it takes a lot to actually make him feel anything.  not because he doesn't  ,  but because he's numb to his own emotions.  when he does feel something  ,  he usually doesn't understand why.
            
            6 :  he's intimidating but nice.  the type to hold doors open and help old ladies cross the road.  he doesn't exactly do it to be nice though.  it's just what he thinks should be done  ,  so he does it.
            
            7 :  stand at 5'11
            
            8 :  he still has the urge to hit something  ..  quite often.  he works out basically daily and is part of a fight club of sorts.  all legal though!  mostly.
            
            9 :  avoids alcohol and drugs at all costs.  he dislikes not feeling in control of his own body.
            
            10 :  he's not one to sugarcoat things.  if you ask him a question  ,  he's going to answer honestly.  to that point that it gets painful.

choosing to join the military hadn't been a hard choice.  not after getting so used to a life of following orders.  
            
            he worked his way up in the ranks at a quick pace.  the second he could start moving up  ,  he did.  until there was nowhere left to climb.  being at the top had been   /  boring  /   though.  there was nothing to do  ,  nothing to fight for.  it was more paperwork than anything.
            
            so  ,  when an offer to join a special forces squad was given  ,  there hadn't been much thought behind accepting.
            
            it had been an easy life.  violence was something he had already grown used to.  it wasn't hard to face the crueler aspects that came with the position.  
            
            eventually  ,  there came a time when even he could recognize that something had gone too far.  when he was killing without care  ,  massacring without asking why.  when he no longer cared that there was no knife being pointed at him.  when he could harm innocents and sleep peacefully the same night.  
            
            leaving the group wasn't something they'd allow easily.  he knew that  ,  had seen it happen.  he didn't think most who left  ,  left alive.  he didn't tell anyone he was leaving  ,  had simply never come back from one of his missions.  left behind a life he had seemingly lost his humanity to.
            
            now  ,  he takes low level security jobs.  things too small for people to really pay attention to him  ,  but still a job that called for order.  

／  no ???

@drumdeaths   /     spit it out??