svnshr

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life updates uh yeah!!
          	
          	currently somewhere between self destruction and a stable mental health (guess which side is winning) and uhm yeah. also turns out not only can i not bake, im a fucking failure who doesn't do shit but burn away my parents money on stupid dreams!! thanks dad u really opened my eyes xoxo. 
          	
          	i am genuinely so tired. i am exhausted. the one person i EVER, EVER fucking called when i tried to commit is gone. my messages dont go through, and im fucking terrified. im scared shitless. either she got caught and had to block me, or shes gone. and that terrified me. i hate this so much. i dont have anyone to go to right now. i feel so empty. she was the one person  who knew it ALL, the one who understood me the BEST. and shes fucking gone.

svnshr

this message may be offensive 
life updates uh yeah!!
          
          currently somewhere between self destruction and a stable mental health (guess which side is winning) and uhm yeah. also turns out not only can i not bake, im a fucking failure who doesn't do shit but burn away my parents money on stupid dreams!! thanks dad u really opened my eyes xoxo. 
          
          i am genuinely so tired. i am exhausted. the one person i EVER, EVER fucking called when i tried to commit is gone. my messages dont go through, and im fucking terrified. im scared shitless. either she got caught and had to block me, or shes gone. and that terrified me. i hate this so much. i dont have anyone to go to right now. i feel so empty. she was the one person  who knew it ALL, the one who understood me the BEST. and shes fucking gone.

svnshr

hii just here to give updates, if anyone was curious or cared <3 
          
          im still in a bad place, but ive been improving. it's been almost 3 months since a relapse, and even thought im thinking of it i haven't gone near. im working on my eating and sleeping habits, but it's really difficult. im going to an amusement park tomorrow, and ill also be camping soon. 
          
          i have also quit posting on capcut, due to its new terms and stuff, but i am using other editing apps to edit. i haven't dealt with drama in a while, and it feels really nice. im doing better, but there's still room for improvement ^^

OfficiallyLixie

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OfficiallyLixie

@svnshr       im so proud of you ml, i think staying away from here was a good decision. i hope you'll continue to get better, and ill be here cheering you ok if you need me! if you ever want to talk or just need some comfort, yk where to find me ;) 
            
            you're doing great, love. i care, ive always cared. <33
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svnshr

hi guys, ik im rarely online anymore, but i will again come to say im going to stay offline less and maybe not come back. this platform takes a lot and has lead to a lot for me, mentally and physically. i don't think it's my best option to stay here or come online especially now, given my grandma has officially passed. i love you guys, you're forever my silly yuyus<3 and don't worry about me, im getting better but i want to try to stay away in case i make a mistake that ruins my mental health again. ily guys sm

soobinchoi_official

oh god im so sorry..i love you sm my yuyu and i hope you will be okay.
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svnshr

@princess_hyein no it's okay ml, and it is good we can still talk outside of here <3
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princess_hyein

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What the fuck im so sorry
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