My heart knows what it wants. Sometimes I just want to hear you care, I wanna see it. It hurts because it's like when did you fall out of love with me? were you pretending the whole time. Are you only using me? Why do I always get the shitty end of the stick, why do I have to feel this pain. Is this love? Love and war, a battlefield. I'm fighting demons and standing in the face of the devil himself to be near you.
I can't sleep, It hurts too bad. When the only person you wanted, doesn't care. When you just want to be held.. and embraced by him, but you can't say anything because you don't want to be misunderstood. You know that he is enough, his words cut like a knife so deep into your heart, that you don't know if you'll recover. You've never felt this way before, you don't know if you ever want to feel this way again though.
Am I enough? Wasn't my love enough? When did you fall out of love with me?
I fall apart daily, tears on the floor, blood in the sink, a broken heart on the curb. I say it's one of those days, ill get over it.. when did you run out of love for me? I thought our love was never-ending, unconditional. I know in the books we were never meant to be. Were two different people, the exact opposite of who I am. I can't help but run back to you. No matter how many times you've stepped on my heart, crushed it, cut me, I need you, I come back and I will always.
Call me dumb, ignorant, naive, but I'm just a girl in love with someone, who is broken and has no idea what real love is. I feel it so deep in my soul you're the one I've waited for all my life. Some days I just want to disappear.. no responsibilities no one to respond to, just me, myself, and the darkness.
I crave psychical intimacy, I love to be touched by you, kissed by you, held, I want to feel loved, that's all I've ever wanted. My entire life, I wanted to feel you. I don't want to put you in a mood with this, but I just love you...
It's hard because you say "I'm trying to be perfect" when in reality I'm the furthest thing from perfect. I fuck up all the time, I sure as hell don't feel perfect. you get mad when I cry, I'm sorry I'm not strong like you, I try but I'm not. I'm human I cry, I have off days, bad days, I get angry.. but at least I try.
I can't imagine a life without breathless moments breaking me down. You are the breathless moments that break down. A true Capricorn in her flesh, I hate change, I love consistency.
