A tale as old as time (tomudeku)

Smol little story and reminder

Hi guys it's been awhile huh...

So the reason I haven't really been updating any of my books recently is because something kinda traumatic happened to me a couple of weeks ago and I've just trying to get my mental stability back and it is mostly here and that is good enough.

So quick little PSA
This story time involves rape and panic attacks and shot so please keep that in mind if any of that triggers you please skip to after the smol(ish) story time 😁

{story starts now!}
So I was walking too Starbucks because I was home alone and I was being dumb especially because I left my phone at home too. So I was walking to Starbucks and I hate walking alone but I needed and wanted my coffee so I was walking past a park near my house and very toxic awful ex was doing soccer shit on the field I was walking by and he looked over and saw me and a bunch of his friends started on me cat calling me and stuff and I was getting very uncomfortable with it and a couple of them figured that out and stopped and told the others to stop which thank the gods but then I passed the skatepark that is by those fields and a couple of the skate borders decide to start doing it to but they started following me which made me super uncomfortable so I started gay walking like the gay I am and they finally realized after like thirty of following me I think they realized I was just going to keep walking so I did and I made it to starbies and the guys was being super nice asking me if I need anything else for free because I looked that panicked so that was nice but then it all went down hill from there. So I was walking down some stairs to get back home and I was spacing out and there were some guys sitting on one of the landings and they started yelling at me so I didn't like trip and die I still wasn't paying attention tho so one of the guys stood up and grabbed my arm lightly so I got out of my head and this man was fucking like six five and my five one ass was looking up at him when he was a whole ass stair lower than me and he looks at me and says "hey what do you go by kid?" Umm huh? He must have seen my confusion because he says "what are your name and pronouns?" Ummm the fuck ok well I'm not telling this random 22 year old my real name so I said grey and they them because those are my pronouns and cuz colors bitch (sorry this is how I cope) "ok grey hi are you ok you look panicked?" I looked at him and decided to be snarky and said "well I am." He immediately said " wait why tho? A pretty little thing like you shouldn't be worried about anything." So I shook his hand away and said "please don't call me pretty I don't know you." " ok." And then all his friends started asking about stuff and cat calling me and he turned around and barked at them to shut up which immediately triggered a panic attack so I started silently crying so I didn't draw attention.  He looked at me worriedly and walked down the stairs slightly to tell his friends to leave and that he would meet them back at their hotel room. And I had like melted into the stairs so he looked at me worriedly and sat down next to me not to close but not to far either he slowly grabbed my hand    And looked at me and slowly lifted his hand to touch and pet my head which is one of my comfort things like that's something I love. So brain basically said ok see that's nice you are ok he just wants to help he isn't going to hurt you. So I subconsciously sat closer and leaned into him slightly and he noticed and brought me so I was in his lap. We sat like that for a while and he started to like massage my hips and stuff with his free hand and when I asked him to stop he did. "Do you wanna talk about it?" "No". He smiled at me sweetly and I ended up wanting my drink so he reached behind him and grabbed it. So I took a sip and leaned back into him. (Fucking dumbass can you believe what they are doing? Yeah me neither) he smiled and started petting my hair again. He pushed me off slightly so he could look at me. He grabbed my chin and whispered " such a pretty thing should never look like that." He leaned in so I backed up and he got the message and started apologizing. He then asked if I wanted to go to his hotel to talk about it more and maybe warm up a bit I said no he said that was fine. He started talking about how he didn't understand why I was out alone and so I told him that I didn't have anyone to go at with. And so he asked me my type saying he might be able to get me someone to go out with. I must have looked confuse cuz he was like I was asking your sexuality not your kinks. That made me blush so I hid my face in his chest like the dumb ass I am and I told him my sexuality. He hummed and moved my head so it was on his shoulder and I let him. After a minuet he started throwing out a bunch of compliments. Which ended up getting out of hand and he ended up calling me sexy and stuff like that so I started to panic again slightly but I pushed that feeling away slightly cuz he was warm. (OMG this bitch they are so dumb!) he started getting touchy so I started to shake while he was whispering shit in my ear that I was not comfy with cus it wasn't comforting it was kinky. He started leaving he started to leave kisses on my neck he started to nip after awhile. So I pushed off of him grabbed my shit and thanked him for his kindness. I quickly started gay walking down the stairs but at the landing he grabbed my hand and pulled me so I was looking up at him. He grabbed my face and kissed me holding my waist and face so I couldn't get away. He ended up biting my lip so hard I gasped and started crying. He took the opportunity  to shove his tongue down my throat. He just kept going he ended up dragging me into a car garage where he took my virginity then he walked away so I sat on the cold ass pavement with marks all over me and shit that I had to hide for weeks.

{story over}

Guys please just be careful don't be a dumb ass like me and trust random men and remember that you don't know and please treat people with kindness you don't know what they are going through. And I'm so sorry this has been longer than any of my other chapters but I felt that this was good for me because I need to write it down I have talked to people about it but not in like a way I wanted to so guys please just be careful.
- Bowie