Unseen Melody

Light Of Love

Walking. I've been walking for so long. My feet hurt so bad and I don't remember how I got here. I look around as I start to come to. I've must of blacked out since I still feel so tired from the lack of sleep. I'm walking on these train tracks as the wind blows against my face. I should sleep, but why? I'll wake up eventually and see I am still existing.

I saw a train stopped. Looks lonely just like me. I walked over to it and saw the cart in the back had open doors. I sat down to rest my aching feet. I looked around at the tracks. As I did I remembered things from my life.

Drugs were a getaway for me and also for her. I remembered one day where I was at a party and felt my heart failing. Someone asked me "Hey are you okay? You seem..." as I heard their voice fade I saw flashes of light from the corner of my eyes. They looked just like stars. I never questioned why I saw the stars that day.

So close and yet so far from death.

The words I always heard whispered to me. Whispered again as I caught my breath and reassured my friend I was okay.

I was constantly battling myself. My dark thoughts that didn't want me to be here. I wanted to do something with my life and be great. I always wanted to leave a lasting memory on people by helping them even when I couldn't help myself. I tried so hard, but I always felt like I couldn't do anything. I kept pushing myself past my thoughts to hopefully regain my smile again. I thought if I could find happiness life would be easier to live on.

I fought my darkness so long to try to find the light. My light when out when my sister left.

I always remember crawling into her bed when the drugs were wearing off. She would hold me close always. "I think I did too much." I would say crying. As we would both fall to sleep.

So close and yet so far from death.

It always felt easier to deal with life being too fucked up to see. I would wander around aimlessly everywhere. I never had to see what was truly surrounding me.

Now that I am awake and can see the world clearly. It is all too much to take in. I look down to see my sister's body. I don't want my heart to break anymore. I want to close my eyes I really do. I want to look away from this, but I can't. I'm alive and she's not. I put her through so much even though she loved me unconditionally until the very end.

I came back to and realized the train had started moving. We went into a very dark tunnel. I felt different. I looked up and I saw it. I saw my light. My sister. I let the train take me away. Before we left the tunnel I nodded to my sister as I found my new purpose.. she smiled back to me and left. I will be like you from now on. I will show people the light of love that you had showed me.

I love you always.