The love of my life, Kurt Cobain

The truth..

I woke up and did my usual routine, it seemed to be a normal day so i did my normal thing.
I got out of bed, walked to my bathroom and took a quick shower, i worked at a small diner about 5 minutes down the road from my small apartment.
When i got out of the shower i heard the phone ring and assuming it was something important i rushed to answer.
"Hello" i said as soon as i picked up the phone.
"Finally you answer, i've been calling you all morning"
It was my best friend Kurt, he would usually pick me up from home and drive me to work, we were so close, since around 4th grade we've been best friends. I've always had feelings for him but he had given several hints that he wasn't interested, and that was fine, he was a great friend and i want him to be in my life forever, even if it isn't the way i wished he was.
"Sorry i woke up late!" i checked the clock and realized i woke up a lot later then i had thought. "Fuck i'm an hour late to work" i yelled.
i heard kurt giggle through the phone, he had the cutest laugh.
"How about you just call in sick today, you're already an hour late, i could pick you up and we could hang out at my house"
"fine, come get me in about 15 minutes?" i smiled.
"alright see you in 15 ally" kurt said before he hung up.
He's always called me Ally, my real name is Aliyah, and i hated when people called me Ally, but when Kurt did it, i could care less, i loved hearing him call me that.
I hurried upstairs and threw one of Kurts T-Shirts that he had left at my house a week or two ago, and some old ripped jeans. Me and Kurt shared clothes all the time, he would wear mine, and i would wear his, we wouldn't even have to ask each other anymore.
i brushed my hair and just left it down, it brushed a little bit past my shoulders, about to my collarbone.
i heard a honk outside and peaked out my window to see my best friend waving at me from his car, i hurried back downstairs and out the door, i quickly locked the door and ran to the car, i got it and gave kurt a hug.
"Omg bestie i missed you" He said as he threw his arm around me, he was purposely trying to act like a girl to mess around with me, he did it all the time and i loved it, he always knew how to make me laugh.
I laughed and turned up the radio, We sang the song and danced around in the car on our way to his house, we finally arrived and got out of the car.
It had started to rain so we rushed inside.
"Shit i forgot to feed my turtles, I'll be right back" he said as he ran off.
i headed upstairs to Kurts room and sat on the bed, i heard something fall off, it seemed to fall from under the pillow on to the floor, the bed must of shook it off when i sat down.
I got up and checked what it was, i bent down and picked up a small book, it was already opened from when it fell, i saw my name and had to read, it felt wrong invading kurts privacy but i had to know what he was saying about me.
'today was amazing, me and Ally went to the mall for her birthday, we spent the whole day together, it felt so nice seeing her smile, especially because i was the one causing her to do so. I wish she would realize how much i love her, i wanna be so much more then just her friend, i'm so afraid to ruin our friendship, she's like a sister to me, but i want her to be mine, i want to be able to hold her in my arms and tell her she's the love of my life. I'm so in love with her, but how could i tell her.'

i was so shocked reading the page, could it be true? Is my best friend of almost 10 years in love with me?