In The Shadows

Spell Of Banishing

I'd like to be able to believe your love

But I've never been able to trust a god

The roses that I cared so much about

Then grew to hate me

I've given my eyes to the depths

And I remained blind for many years

So now I can't help but fret

When lights appears

The little free shiver of finally breathing

When waiting for another blow

It's the start of the first serene lullaby

They used to say "the moon goes by"

Everything started when my mind, of bad thoughts was lavished

And like a curse, a quenchless thirst

They said "your flesh is banished"

Don't know the source, no exit doors

I was pulled in headfirst

And oh how I had to soldier on and fight

Nevertheless all the meds, my body was never right

Actually it went well from time to time

But give me nothing if you'll retreat your surprise

Guess I'll dance again to Joy Division

Let it pass, this season

Sometimes seeing things too well

Makes me see things that are not