Together,Forever?

11

Sam:

I felt--I don't know the word to fit what I am feeling.Its confusion mixed with happiness.I shouldn't be okay with what I am thinking right now but it is comforting.It feels like its not a great deal to forget few things from past.I always ask myself that moving on is simple,may be yes,if you got a right person at the good moment in our life.

Definitely,Rick being with me is kind of comforting.I don't know when this happened,but I am not worried to let him in.Its pleasant when he is with me,it is peaceful and I am not having any thoughts of what ifs and may be's or may not be's.

I wanted to say he is the hope I needed in my life,but its,in some way hard to believe that strongly and its too early for that.

"What you are doing?"I looked up from my homework when I heard Jenny,from behind.

"Umm,sorry Jenny.No customer present in store-so I thought,I can do some work-I am not intended to neglect work."

"I know."She said,"Is that algebra?"

"Yes."

"I don't mind you doing your school work in your work hours,but your teacher would surely mind if those algebra includes Rick name in it."

"Huh?!!"I checked my notes and I wrote his name instead of a formula.

I erased his name on paper,corrected the problem as Jenny chuckled,"You can let him in your life,Sam.But don't let him in your home work."She said,"Okay,I am going home.Better close those books."

I looked her walking out of store,closing my books.I should slap myself for doing this,but I am not feeling bad.If anyone who is responsible for this must be Sasha.She is the one who called me today and told me that I had changed,I didn't asked for Asher these days and I am attending her calls,and mainly she concluded that this must be because of Rick.

Not because she told me,I realize these feelings for him when I am sleeping all the night,eating properly,no dark circles around my eyes,the delightful look on my face and most important,no calls from him since our last dinner and I am missing him,a lot more than I know.

I thought he would be thinking the same way I am thinking about him.But it seems like it isn't the situation,since he didn't call or text.I observed something different in his behavior from the dinner.That is the reason I expected a call from him.

I sat back on chair,thinking about that night.His behavior is surely changed towards me,but at the end of night,he acted unusual.He was cheerful when we enter the restaurent,and he is moody when we came out.

'Why?'I whispered to no one and then its clicked me.We spoke about Asher.My goodness,Why this thought never crossed my mind.He is upset that I am liking someone----not him.

My god!Rick is liking me?!!!

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'You think you deserve love,Sam from my mother?Seriously!!!'Brian spoke.

'Your parents,who gave you birth rejected you.They don't even care for you and you wanted our mom affection.What can I say about you,selfish devil.You are unfit to love anyone,sister.You shouldn't even have right to gain care from anyone else.'Its Brett now.

Brett's voice suddenly shifted to Avery.

'Ash,did you look at her.She is dull,naive and not at all beautiful.Do you think she can have a guy like you,the most popular guy in our school.She is nothing,I say nothing when compared to me,Asher!'

I shut my eyes tightly to stop those voices around me.I closed my ears not wanting to hear them,but they don't stop.I can hear them,all mixed,clumsy.

'You are unfit for affection,sister.'