I wish that I could
Go back in time
See the joy
On their faces
Then frustration
And anger
All at once
Where they fought
Should've listened
Should've said
Yes to what he said
Why didn't you
Things could have been
Better for everyone
One less
One less Mouth to feed
One less Body to clothe
One less Money to spend on
One less Happiness to sacrifice
One less
Where there were no more fights
No more sadness
No more problems
No more sacrifices
So why?
Why didn't you say yes
Why didn't you listen
Why did you have to fight
Why did you want to sacrifice
Why?
You should've
You should've said yes
To my death.
Things could've been better
But now
I only have blood on my hands
My life dead to myself
Useless. A mess. Undeserving. Out.
I wasn't supposed to be here
So why am I here now?
Someone else
Someone better
Someone useful
Someone perfect
Someone
Someone you wanted to have
Disappointment is all you see in me
You don't have to keep me
You've locked me out
Said I wasn't needed
Said that I'm useless
Said that I don't fit
Said that
No one wanted me.
You've tried to take it back
But if already cut deep
Because I know you meant
Every single word
Without regrets
Because it was true
You've wished for my death
And I my own
I've never wanted anything more
Than to go back in time
And say yes
To my death.
