My prince-ipal

Take me to church..

Still and frozen, my body is completely numb along with my mind. The same playlist has played over and over on my speaker as well as my thoughts. My mind had stretched out completely and stomach has been emptied of all things. He knew, he didn't say anything, and he let me.. What the hell did that mean? I don't want to go to school ever again, not see him and his gorgeous face. I let out a groan and slumped over planting my face into the pillow. What was I gonna do?

I leaned out of bed for the first time in what seems years unplugging my phone from the speaker. Multiple texts from Carter that I dismissed in my numb sleep.

HEY LETS HANG OUT GIRL ☻

OKAY LETS NOT??? ☹

ITS SATURDAY!! DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE

IM IN YOUR LIVING ROOM B^)

I jumped up quickly slipping on a better shirt, but he was gay so I didn't care how I looked at the moment. Wait, was he even here ? I opened the door secretively tiptoeing out down the hall and peeked over the wall seeing my mom in the kitchen. She was cooking something, but my nose was backed up making my ability to smell horrid. But I didn't care, the sight of food was pleasing enough. I relaxed and walked over to the stool smiling at the scrambled eggs and hash on the pan.

"Morning mother.." I yawned making her jump slightly.

"Jesus you scared me... you hungry?" She smiled.

" Of course! Where's dad?"
She continued stirring and smiled to herself while I watched it sizzle.

"Oh.. He went to the store for some drinks for the game tonight and your friend Carter.."

"Oh okay.. wait Carter?! "

"Oh yeah he's out back by the pond, he said he told you.." She turned to me, but I ran out the back door without replying.

Passed the bushes and swing set of memories I spot him humming over his reflection on the foggy pond water, and all I can do is watch him waiting for him to realize.

"I did text you.." he murmurs under the high note of the song he's humming.

I sigh, " I don't feel good and I don't wanna deal with this so go home and let me rot in my hole.."

He laughs and gets up rolling his hazel eyes at me as if I asked him where babies came from. Without a word he wipes the sand on my back and shuffles into my house without care or worry about my groans.

" Well go ahead eat my food and take the TV! I'm going to sleep for another year, okay? Bye!" I crawl pass his amused eyes and smack the door open.

I could here him come in, but I just hugged into a pillow feeling like I need to die. I kissed my principle thinking he was asleep and yet he wasn't and he let me kiss him. What would I do?

"Come to church with me today..." He finally spoke and I laughed.

"It's Saturday! Not SUNDAY kiddo!"

"My church has a pre prayer thing where they bring donuts and juice, I just sit outside by the trees listening from the open doors." He smiles and picks a piece of hash that has fallen on his sweater.

"No." I wanna stay here.

"Well you're coming bitch.." He smiles and shuts my door after he tells me his mother will be here in five minutes.
Fine I'll go! But I'm going dressed exactly like this! No way I'm gonna look good when I'm just gonna go get fat from donuts.

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We arrived after a long quiet drive, which didn't feel right since Carter is always loud and outgoing. Maybe weekends are just dead for him? Whatever, I hope he's happy now. I'm here and I'm ready to eat! Few of the children were playing soccer with a deflated ball and I flinched desperately wanting to join.

"Relax, the ball gets kicked over the fencing every time and they don't get back until the next time they come. It's not worth it." He laughs at me dragging me towards the coffee and juice making me suddenly thirsty because I could smell the peppermint creamer. As I begin to pour some in a voice wraps me in and pull me out of the trance.

"What a lovely outfit for church." I could hear a smile and I choke on a drier mouth than before. I turn and his piercing pale blue grey eyes watch me with amusement. I cough again and shake my head in disbelief.

" I'm sorry to fright you, are you okay?" He sticks his hand in his pockets giving me a wide stare. A tight white under shirt and black half leather half cotton jacket and jeans suits him and his gleaming smile.

"I.. Im perfectly fine!"

" Don't be afraid of me, I didn't mean to intimidate you." A small secret smile stays contained.

"I'm not afraid..or intimidated!" I frown and suddenly regret the lie.

"Oh shame... You should be.. its always more fun that way." He partially winks and walks away into the building as the bell rings and Carter comes back with some donuts. I am more lost than before, but I want him.. And praying was not going to help my state at the moment.