Unexpected Marriage [Completed]

Chapter 52

Off POV

"Gun" I called him. He sat under the big tree.

"Ok bye" Gun said to the other line before he turned to me.

"Off. What are you doing here?" He asked. I sit beside him.

"Nothing. Just following you"

Gun nodded. We stay in silent just enjoying the night and the cool breeze around.

"How's Doc Mild?" Gun broke the silent.

"She's okay now"

"Good" he nodded.

"Gun, I know you told me that you will let me explain after the shooting but I think this is the right time. I can't wait to explain my side so there is no awkwardness between us." I faced him. I can't stand Gun and I like this. He just looked at me so I speak again. "I wanna clear that I didn't really cheated on you."

"So why did you not tell me that you already had a girlfriend in the first place?" Gun asked me blankly.

I took a seconds before I spoke. "What if I tell you that I had girlfriend what will you do?" I asked him back.

"I will stop the arrange marriage and I won't let myself fall inlove with you." I felt my heart get stabbed by a long sharp knife.

"How?" I'm hurting myself but I want to know how he will held himself not to fall in me.

"I will avoid you as much as I can. I'm not a relationship wrecker" Gun said straight before hesitating.

"That is why I don't tell you, Gun. I know you will do that. I'm falling... no, I'm already drowning inlove with you that time. And I don't want you to avoid me if you knew that I had girlfriend" my voice cracked.

"you are selfish, Off. You let Namtan and I look fool for your own happiness." Gun still don't have any emotion. I can't read his eyes. It's not sad nor angry.

"Yes, I admit that I became selfish that time but what can I do? I really loved you." Loved. I still love you, Gun but I'm afraid to tell you.

Gun didn't say anything. He just diverted his eyes on my and look somewhere.

"The person I really hate are those cheaters and liars" Gun spoke after a seconds of silent.

"I may lie on you but I didn't cheat" I quickly replied. Gun turned to me confused. "Namtan and I already had misunderstandings when the first week we came in to your house. We both agree in cool off before our engagement. I forgot her when I started to like you. I badly want to break up with her so I can love you freely but I can't break up with her through phone. Gun, I'm not that kind of person. So I thought I'll talk to her when we meet again. In my Grandpa's funeral when you saw us in the swing I'm asking her a break up that time. But it all messed up when you met. I don't have idea that Namtan was your ex lover. I was shocked when Auntie told me about you and Namtan but I was hurt more when you told me to stay with Namtan. You made me feel that you didn't love me enough to fight for. It seemed you care for Namtan than me because, you are worried what she would feel but how about me? Did also thought what would I feel after? Do you also feel guilt when you force me to stay with the person I didn't love? Do ever care my love for you?... I really want to fight, Gun but how can I when you already let go?" the tears starting to fall slowly. The pain in the past is like coming back. I already speak out what the questions and confession I was carrying for 5 years.