Hidden Behind the Screen

Chapter 5

The words rang through his head, like an alarm going off in the morning. It's because you like him more than a friend. Why would Sapnap say something like that? How could he even know that?

It took Dream months to realize and decipher his feelings for George, how could Sapnap possibly figure it out because of one stupid conversation they had on discord?

"I've suspected for a while," Sapnap started when he noticed Dream wasn't responding. "Ever since our last call really. You just sounded so devastated when you asked me if George has told me he loves me before. This talk we had today really solidified my suspicions. It's the way you talk about him Dream, the emotion you hold for him seeps through your voice. It's like I'm forced to watch some cheesy Hallmark movie every time you mention him."

"Are you mad at me?" Dream asked faintly, finally speaking.

"What?!" replied Sapnap incredulously. "Why the hell would I be mad at you?"

"I lied to you, all of you this whole time. And I like him, Sapnap, how will that affect our group? We're the dream team, and what about the manhunts we have together? The whole dynamic of our friendship will be changed forever because of how I feel," Dream said in a desperate voice, like he was trying to get Sapnap to understand the scuffle he was having with himself in his head.

"That's bullshit and you know it. You're just saying these things as excuses to give yourself a reason to hide how you feel about George. You know that me and Bad love you both unconditionally and would be fine with anything happening. Hell, even if we weren't you shouldn't give a shit or let that stop you because it's your life. Look, personally I don't care who you like or are attracted to, as long as you're my best friend that's all that matters to me."

"That means a lot to me Sapnap, more than you would ever know," Dream replied, tearing up a bit. "I'm just scared of everything changing."

"I get that. Well, not the way you do, but I can try to understand. Even if it all does change, who says it has to be for the worse. It could change for the better. Whatever happens, I'll be by your side Dream. We've known each other since we were kids, I'm not willing to give that up."

"Neither am I Sapnap. I wouldn't know what I'd do without you," he admitted. He was so worried Sapnap might react negatively, but he proved him wrong. The kind words from Sapnap looped in his head, replacing all of his fears.

"So, how long have you know you were gay? Or are you bi, because you have date girls before." Sapnap began to inquire, interested in his friend and wanting to know more about him.

"I don't really know if I'm being honest," he laughed a bit. "I've never really found myself being into guys before. And yeah, I have had girlfriends that I've loved. That wasn't a lie. It's..." he drifted off mid sentence.

"It's George," Sapnap finished for him.

"Yeah," Dream agreed. "I don't really have a label for how I feel, or at least I haven't figured it out yet," he explained. He spent most of his time getting mad at himself for falling for George that he never really thought about what it meant regarding his sexuality.

"Whenever you figure it out, however long it takes, I'll always be here to listen," Sapnap replied.

"Thanks. I'll make sure to tell you right when I know."

"Hey," Sapnap said, rather aggressively. Shocking Dream at the sudden change in tone. "I'm actually offended right now. Why didn't you fall for me Dream? What's special about George that you like him?"

"Shut up Sapnap," Dream said when he realized Sapnap was joking, he had a huge smile on his face. "Maybe it's just because George is better than you," Dream said, playing along.