Your Cry in August

August 21st, 2016.

Cherry Blossom's Before Winter

Nagisa woke up early due to the sun gazing in through her translucent curtains, the early morning sun spread throughout the room, causing Nagisa to sigh and get out of her bed, which she have been laying in for days. As she got out of the bed the heels of her feet met with the cold wood flooring. She walked to her closet, looking in the closet laid a mountain of clothes that were there for well over a week, she did not have the motivation nor time to fold the mountain of clothes. They just sat there collecting dust. I rummaged through that pile of clothes searching for my school uniform, it was wrinkled, I did not go to school for weeks, these past few days all I did was lay in bed. Struggling I put on my school uniform. After putting them on, I walked past my bathroom mirror, I 'am disgusted by the person I saw in the mirror. It did not bother me what was staring back at me and other people thought of my appearance, all that mattered was how my mom thought of me, I did not want to be a disappointment more then I already am. Turning my gaze, I glanced at my piano. The small bit of sun light that was shining in my room was reflecting off the hood of the piano. It was almost as if the light was illuminating out of the piano.

It looked beautiful.

The piano was the only thing keeping me sane, it eased my thoughts, it completely cut off the thoughts that corrupted my mind when I play so effortlessly and unbothered. I play as if the world was not slowly burning into dust.

I grabbed my piano notes and stuffed them in my book bag, along with my gloves and the key chain my mom gave me for good luck, I tried to stall and come up with thoughts that will keep me away from today, but today was my big performance, I did not want to let my mom down. Nor will I have the satisfaction to call myself a pianist if all I do is isolate myself, and not share the beauty of music and pass on the melody to echo in others hearts, just like Casey did to me.

It will be the first time I went to the theatre in what feels like a long time, the sight of the theatre made my heart ache, the same familiar pierce of when I saw the for sale sign on the field in front of Casey's house. Tonight was going to change everything, or so I wanted it to change everything. Starting today I will change, starting today I will not be scared to look people in the eyes, starting today I will let go of the past, and that is a promise.

Nagisa said that in a trembling tone underneath her breath clenching her fists together when she glances at what used to be Casey's house.

Nagisa ate her breakfast quickly while she reads her piano notes over for the fiftieth time. After eating her break feast she slowly walked to school, as she walked she practiced on her imaginary piano, tapping her fingers in the air, trying to sink each hand movement into muscle memory.

She was listening to Chopin Nocturne in F minor-op. 55, No 1. It was one of her favorite pieces. The way he played the piano was beautiful, the way he played the piano made her feel so peaceful and free. The way he played reminded her of Casey. Casey showed her that piano song. She kept the little things close to her that reminded Nagisa of Casey. Everything he left became her everything. Casey's everything lost its tomorrow, and now is wandering around eternally, along with Nagisa.

Forever.

Her hair blew with the autumn wind, hinting her that it was almost winter, looking down the street she took a deep breath in, and letting her stress blow away with the cold wind, making her wrap her burgundy scarf once more around her neck to protect her from the cold morning breeze.

The air was clean, the cherry blossoms trees just begun dropping their leaves. The sight of the cherry blossoms made her happy it meant winter was coming. Casey's favorite season was winter. They both enjoyed seeing the cherry blossom trees shed.