How's hell :Magcon slave

Im tired thats all ......

Titanium -David guetta ft sia
Crystal pov -
There was my dad on the floor passed out. I run to him shake him and call his name no answer ok dial 911!
911- what's your emergency
C- my dad he's on the floor passed out please come
911- ok honey helps on their way stay on the line for me ok sweetie
C- yah yah okay just please come
10 minutes they arrived and took him . I rode along crying panicking with questions running through my mind I thought I would never have to go through this again . as we arrived I stayed in the waiting room. a few minutes later a doctor came and told me to follow him . He led me into the to room saying "he's unconscious so go easy on him." "ok thanks ." I go over to my dad and hold his hand it's cold . I sit down still holding it . "hey dad I know you can hear me and even though you do bad things you still mange to be there and that's all I need so please dont leave me now." I waited for a response something but all I heard was that stupid machine and all my moms death memories came flooding in like a emotional tsunami . I couldn't take it any longer I ran out and ran until I was at the park . it was tiring considering my weight . I climbed up the playground and laid in the highest slide house . I just cried you don't really think there situations will happen to you . You see it on the tv and think how how does that person wake up very morning and go through with that . But every time you go to sleep and you wake up the next day you forget for just a few seconds and then it all comes back . You get up put up the pain day after day . that's what I've been doing. I cry for a little more when I see a light . Someone is coming up. I don't really care . that person sits next to me and I'm to tired to see who it is . yah I know dumb you can get killed hello stranger danger but really at this point I don't care . "tell me ." that's all I needed to hear for me to say the words I just thought a few minutes ago. "I'm tired of the world bullshit and me giving the fucks about it I just want to shut my eyes because I continue much longer it's to tiring to continue living and remembering and I just I just I want to rest and go somewhere I never have to come back from a painless life a restless life and I I" ..... I can't really explain to this stranger because I'm to tired and the sobbing is making it harder and the stranger just says "then rest rest till you can no longer hold on and I will be there but it's a bye for now." the strangers word put me to sleep and I feels it's presence leave . I walk home and sleep. I sleep and sleep for two days straight not going to school just laying there . I decide on Friday I will go . so here I am wensday still resting sleeping relieving what ever this fucken society calls it . My dad hasn't awaken and it's starting to get the doctors worry , I check on him when I can and he's looking worse. I go home and sleep . I wake up around 5pm. I get up decide to shower. I shower and put on some skinny jeans a black long sleeve a Maroon hoodie and some converse and go to Starbucks . I take my laptop . I order a large coffe and sit down watching some videos . I then go home and shower my body and go to my bed. I open my music app and put on my depressing music playlist we all have on and play it . I put it in very low but hearable and lay down . *beep beep* I wake up sweating like always the usual mom dreams. I get up and get dressed into some skinny jeans a small tube top with my maroon hoodie over and my converse . I grabbed my back pack and walked to school. morning was going usual until in first matt said "you tired fatty." "you care why ?" "We'll you did tell me last Sunday ." my eyes widened and I looked at him. "That was you matt?!" "Yup but I won't tell the boys you know unless you don't listen to us ." "yah okay I promise thank you ." I whisper the last part.

Say something - the great big world ft Christina aguilera
the day went the usual except after school someone hit me in the face . I turned to see it was Cameron . "what the hell?!" "Shut up fat fuck!" "Taylor Nash hold her down ." they do as told bad hold me down . immediately the jacks I bearly talk too start hitting my corners. Matt comes out of no where and slaps harder multiple times . then they just leave like nothing . I walk home and take a hot shower. 3/4 of the time I just sit there wandering and thinking about nothing but my life . is there a reason is the question I seem to ask a lot . is there a reason I'm fat my parents the boys everything . I just go back to reality and get dressed . I put on my pj and go to sleep thinking again

1 month later -
So so far life is still stupid . the boys are know taking the whole bullying a step farther. my dad is now nearly dead he's in a coma but only I know . my grades are still great but Britney and her posse still make fun of my fat and just last Monday Britney pulled up my shirt and all my fat showed people laughed and posted pictures on Facebook some strangers defended me but that only did so much . there is now 3 days left of school 2 after this night . I realty looking forward because tomorrow is finals and they put us into separate classes depending on our grades they told me I was going to be in the library all day with other really smart kids in my grade basically nerds. but that's ok because I won't see the stupid Britney and Cameron along with there little minions . the two days passed by very fast . the test were easy and we all finished early so we all ended up talking . I met Skylar Brian Zach and Mads aka maddie . they're all nice and we have a lot in common . we decide to hang out over the 4 month break .

It was now the last day of ninth grade . I woke up a decide it look a little nice . I wanded my hair then. Brushed it out . it actually looked nice since it was long . I walked with the "nerds" to school and all day Cameron's and Britney's & their minions threw us things called us ugly and fat . I mean I was fat but skylar and mads were just a little . zach and Brian were just a little boney needed a haircut and some contacts and there . after school they all cornered us and threw us eggs and flour then ran . I however was to tired of this I said "were going to my house no exception ." We walked over cleaned up and I sat us in the kitchen"okay I'm tired of their bullshit and I came up with a plan .!"