what death leaves behind

i. GRUDGES

did you watch last night's episode?

i will ask her and she'll tell me of course

we'll share some smiles and talk about

how we want more

right now.

tomorrow i will ask her

did you watch last night's episode?

she'll tell me 'god damnit, i'm not sure

if i liked the way it ended.' i'll ask her why

and she will begin ranting about how

they made fun of depression.

'it's not something that will make you a

fucking hipster,' she curses and i can only

agree with her.

did you like last night's episode?

she knows why and i know why

she holds a grudge against that show now

but yet she nods and says it was okay.

the episode was okay, the fact that

i loved it was okay,

[john green did not invent okay]

but she was not okay.