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Happy new year

Trigger Warning: Mention of s*lf h*rm (i will bold it) and talk of my mom being a bitch

Happy New Year

Let's hope that this one is better

And I am currently crying because of my mother again

She's been doing that a lot lately

She's been the cause of a few relapses and is making me really want to do it again now

She's been making me hurt a lot mentally lately and it hurts even more because I used to look up to her so much and just wanted to make her proud

She just made me feel so worthless because she said that you can't be successful without a higher education unless you are a sports star or have talent (she definitely could have worded that better, way to make me feel like I have no talent, thanks mom!)

Does anyone have a way to help cope with this?

She says I can go to her for anything and then makes my issues seem smaller than they really are

Ex. I said that I felt pressured to do well and make her proud

She said that life is pressure and completely ignored the part about making her proud

It makes me want to draw myself away from my family even more and shut off and not talk and make me feel like I don't have a voice

SHE FUCKING SCOLDED MY FATHER AND BROTHER FOR DOING THAT SAME FUCKING THING AND NOW SHE'S DOING IT

She also said that my mental issues are not to the point of me not doing well in school

She keeps saything that there are people with the same fucking thing and they're doing just fine

So I'm pretty sure I am now the disappointment of the family

My oldest brother has a pretty okay job I think, my other brother has a job and is doing pretty okay in school, and then I'm failing three classes and can't do anything right it seems

Sorry for venting I really needed to get that off my chest

Someone please help me

I love you all so much and I hope you don't ever have to feel this way

Until next time!