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He was my best friend since we're kids. We grow up together in our small town. He's my protector, my savior, and mi amore. As we go older, I realize my true feelings for him, sad to say I can't tell him that because it may affect our friendship.
When we reach college, I don't have any boyfriend. I am single but my heart is already taken. My best friend don't have any girlfriend either. He believe that his first love should be his last.
Today is our first day of school as a forth year college students. I thought it would be the same like before, but it all change when a shy girl accidently bump into him.
As we walk towards our room he keeps on saying admiring words about the girl that annoyed me, so I walk faster than the usual. He run towards me and ask why I'm in a hurry. Of course, I told him it's nothing and I just want to go to our room.
I thought it would be the last time we'll see that girl, but maybe faith is not on my side, because the girl that my best friend admire is sitting peacefully inside our room. As I look at her, I must say she is indeed the best example of a prim and proper girl.
When me and my best friend enter the room I thought he'll sit beside me, but I was wrong. He sit beside the girl and start talking to her as if they have their own world. I don't know but my heart hurts every time I catch them laughing and smiling at each other.
After our morning classes, I go directly to our cafeteria and sit in our usual spot. My best friend is entering the place with that girl and both of them are wearing their joyful smile. They come near me and ask if the girl can join us for lunch. It would be rude if I say no, so I just let her join us.
Days, weeks and months passed by, my best friend keep his distance from me. He's always with that girl and I'm confused. Is he still my best friend? Am I still his best friend? The best choice that I have is to confront him.
I thought it would turn out good, but then again, I was wrong. I find out that he already has a girlfriend and he keep his distance from me because the girl he love might get jealous. Who am I to interfere with his decision? I am just his best friend.
That day, I finally confess my feeling towards him. He was shock and keep on saying sorry. I assure him I'll be fine. I only need to see his smile even from a far.
He hug and kiss my forehead for the last time and said "Forgive me for I can not love you back the way you love me. But remember, I am always here for you. I love you my best friend."
Seeing him happy is enough to make me smile. Love does not only define for two people loving each other. Love also define for those who let go. They love them so much that it hurts and it's time to move on.
My heart is strong enough for loving him secretly but my heart become even stronger because I learn to let go and move on.
If letting you go makes you happy, then I'll do it. After all, you and I are just best friend and will remain best friend.
