"Isaiah I'm tired of this, I'm not happy" a long pause that only seem like would be forever between us. As I looked in his eyes all I could see was defistation and sorrow that he had failed in keeping my happiness. " I have to go to class ,please leave me alone" as I turned away ,beginning to walk before I could make another step, An out of no where quick snap and yolk from my arm appeared in my sudden presence. I turned around in surprise to see Isaiah standing right there looking back at me " Isaiah the bell rung! We need to get to class now" I said. As he pulled me closer and his grip became slightly a bit tight, he tried to kiss me. "So u just gonna leave me like that? U just like all them other girls" he said his grip loosened and I saw a look in his eyes I had never seen before. A look so cold chills ran up my spine. I could feel the hairs on my body stand up.I had to get out of that place.
Its the next day of school ,I'm holding my head up high while I walk the school hallways. Every time I looked away I felt like his stare was out there somewhere. All I know is I felt in my heart that I did the best that I could ,together for 3 years felt like a waste to me, I was miserable, but wasn't always miserable. I thought he was my soulmate my everything I could have ever wanted. He was the perfect gentlemen. As time went by he wasn't the Isaiah I first meet in my middle school 8th grade year that I was head over heels for. He was so controlling, and childish. He would always, tell me what to do and make me feel less then a,person from time to time because of how bad his trust issues were. Whenever I'd find myself alone all the thoughts would flush n my head; my eyes would fill up suddenly with tears. It all seemed so much for me and so intense.As the time went on things got worst and I got a grip of myself and realized that I wud not take this anymore; that I would speak up. But the more I spoke up the closer I felt that we were coming to an end; we did. The end of my 10th grade year , the ending of 2013 entering a freshly new year of 2014. As I'm adjusting to being on my own again the months where flying by; it had been awhile since I had been without someone. Hell I was convinced that no one wud come my way and take my breath away and be the right one for me,I just didn't want to start all over (againnn!!!). He was my first and surely wasn't my last...
Chapter 2 "And Then He Came Along"
"RINGGG" At the sound of the bell I rushed out the school building like there was no tomnorow. Shit who ya kidding I was so dam glad to leave that hell school and be on my way home. I couldn't stop thinking about dear old Annie, so sweet; nice ,but the Freakiest hip horney 98 year old woman Ive ever met hahaha!!! Tell you what she always made my day and I just couldn't wait to see her. I rushed to the house getting ready for work took a glance at the time it was a quarter after 4. " dammit I'm running a little late hope ms.Anne doesn't chew my ass, haha sike lol". I said to myself. Before walking out the door I gave my grandma a kiss.She has been there for as long I could remember, as far as I'm concerned hell she is my parents all In one.
I'm on my way out the door preparing myself for lord knows what may come my way. Before walking out the door on my own I always say a prayer. I could hear my father in my head already " Lee say a prayer before you go, come home safe". As I took off I put my favorite black and blue candy skull music ear buds in my ears. Had them for so long I don't Evan remember, one of the sounds were out on one of my earbuds; and I was too stubborn and cheap to buy another pair. I'm walking slowly n a pace I could find my favorite song track. " Hey Lil mama dam you so beautiful, Can I talk to you please" I looked up to see a short cocky funny looking black guy he seemed sweet and nice, but wasn't at all a guy I intended on having interest in. " Thank u, but no thank u I have to get to work" I told em. I kept my decency, but honestly I really wanted to get away from that guy.He offered me a facial make up card and I considered taking a visit. I don't Evan remember the last time I pampered or done anything for myself as I snapped back to realty and looked up, I realized I missed the bus " dammit ,o well just gotta keep walking I'll be alright " I said to myself. Tell you what it was dam hot my face began to glisten the closer I became to the end of the stop sign. My legs and feet started to cramp up I felt like crying but putted up a fight ; was determined to get to work after all, if I was a little late ms.Annie wouldn't kill me completely, just as long as I showed up she would be happy. The sweats running down my face I feel like its the scorching dessert and just when things couldn't get any worsier I'm called out of my name " Sabrina! Is that you?" A tall handsome fine man that stood about 6'3 feet tall.Lord knows he was so dam fine from a far away. It just seemed to good to be true. I snapped back into reality as the blur of the distance of his body vanished and I got a close up look at him, still fine as ever dammit. " I'm not sabrina, you got the wrong person" I said in a sassy not giving a dam attitude haha I sure could play the part well.I continued to walk away as I was trying to fulfill my destination. Before I could Evan make another step "Wait!!! Just give me a minute please?? Can I talk to you?" He said " No I don't give out my number" I said contemplating whether I should give him my number or not. Nah I'm not going to make it to easy for him,I'm going to see what he will do. As I looked up I could see the glisten n his eyes, I just couldn't get his eyes out of my head, but I was for certain that he wouldn't fool me. Hehe think he slick and shit. I thought about my grandma and all the talks we had about guys I knew that she meant me well " I don't want your pussy, they do. If you say yes to every single guy u come across, u will be passed around like a buck. Mean more to yourself baby they don't love you like I do." My grandma voice echoed at the back of my mind " Do you have a Instagram?" He said " No I don't have one" I said. A long pause stayed between us. I couldn't stop thinking about him, it felt so unreal to me I had to walk away from this. ; I did. As I walked away he jumped in his car and caught me before I could take another step begging and insisting that I'd let him give me a ride to work. " is this dam nigga crazy I thought " I'll let you hold my wallet he said " a nigga can't go nowhere without his wallet". I chuckeled a bit and got in the car. " know look your not trying anything u are just taking me to work, got that. Now keep your eyes on the road." The names Jay, and yours?" Its Alethea. He kept trying to start a conversation with me it was annoying ,but I liked it and wanted him to continue. "So I still can't have your number?" He said." No , but I can have yours." "And will you call me?" He said " I'll call u when I call you hehe". I finally got to my destination. Was about time, I was getting tired of this nigga talking, well not really he he.but he didn't know that thou. " will I ever hear from you?" He said as I stepped out the car "I have to go jay!" Please he said. "Maybe".
