Fluff & Angst✨
Tw: mentions of self harm, the F slur, implied physical abuse & verbal abuse.
This is a vent ish thing I guess idk-
So yeah sorry for bad writing in advance🤠
I had a lot of trouble coming up with a name for this oneshot I'm still not even satisfied w the name💀
3rd Person
Kazuichi laid in bed looking out the open window across his room. Many different thoughts rushed through his head, a particular animal breeder coming to mind quite a few times. Kazuichi could feel the cuts on his thighs sting as he shifted around in his bed, turning away from the window.
He felt a chill run down his spine as he sunk into the cold sheets. The bruises on his legs and hips aching as he relaxed into the bed.
He smiled softly as he thought about laying in bed in his boyfriend warm embrace.
His smile quickly turning into a frown after he remembered the small argument they had a few days ago, he never meant to yell at Gundham he was just angry at the breeder. Kazuichi started biting his nail as he tried to forget about Gundham and the stupid argument they had. He laid there listening to the soft sound of Tv in the living room. He sighed as he remembered the harsh words his dad had told him earlier.
It wasn't anything out of the normal to be insulted by his dad for seemingly no reason, and it's not as if he hadn't heard those words before... so he didn't understand why he couldn't ignore this overwhelming feeling of sadness as those words played over and over in his head. He could feel tears formed in his eyes, threatening to fall at any moment.
"I don't feel real.."
Kazuichi whispered softly to himself. He closed his eyes, his head beginning to hurt.
Suddenly he heard the tv turn off and his eyes immediately shot open, he heard his dads slow and loud footsteps making their way to his door.
Kazuichi stared at the door his eyes wide as he feared the worst. The footsteps stopped in front of his door, he heard a soft click as his door swung open. He quickly shut his eyes as he heard the figure walk into his room.
"Kazuichi are you awake,.. I need you to run to the convince store to buy me a few things..!." The mechanic heard a raspy and deep voice yell. Kazuichi tightly gripped onto the pillow below his head as he pretended to be asleep hoping his dad would just give up and go away.
The bed creaked as Kazuichi's dad sat at the edge of the bed. Kazuichi tensed up as he felt his dad put a hand on his thigh and began caressing him softly.
"Kazuichi I've never told you just how handsome you are.." the male whispered.
Kazuichi opened his eyes and stared at the wall in front of him. His hands began to shake as he felt his dad slowly slide his hand up towards the cuts scattered across his thigh.
Kazuichi quickly sat up and looked at his dad. "H-hello..?" Kazuichi stuttered out trying to pretend that he just woke up. He brought his knees to his chest and stared at his dad. The dim moonlight barely providing enough light for Kazuichi to make out his dads figure. The two sat there silently staring at each other.
"D-do you- need s-something.. dad.?" Kazuichi stuttered out, his heart pounding in his chest as he kept staring at his dad. Kazuichi's dad nodded and slowly got up from Kazuichi's bed.
"I need you to run to the convenience store and buy me a few things." He said putting his hands in his pocket.
Kazuichi looked out the window and frowned. "B-But it's d-dark outside.." Kazuichi whined softly.
His dad stared at him annoyed. "No son of mine is gonna be afraid to go outside in the dark, only women and f*gs whine about being scared about the dark!." Kazuichi's dad yelled.
Kazuichi looked down at his bed and felt tears begin to form in his eyes. "Y-You're ..., right- I-I-I'm sorry.." Kazuichi mumbled trying his best not to cry.
Kazuichi sat there silently as his dad walked out of the room.
"Fucking idiot.." Kazuichi heard his dad say under his breath. Kazuichi slowly slid off his bed and stood up, his legs trembling as he did. He covered his mouth and stared at the floor.
"I don't want to be here anymore." Kazuichi mumbled as he began to cry.
"I-I... I don't wa-wanna be-...here.."
Kazuichi mumbled again as he reached for his phone that was on the nightstand. He unlocked his phone and opened the messaging app, he scrolled for a little before finding his and Gundhams conversation. Kazuichi stared at his screen, his hands shaking as he began to type.
Kazuichi
Hey Gundham you awake?
Read 1:34 am
"...."
Kazuichi
Gundham please answer I'm sorry we got into that fight I'm really sorry it was all my fault
I'm so sorry please just respond
Read 1:34 am
"...."
Kazuichi
Are you mad at me? I'm sorry :( please
answer I just really need you right now
Kazuichi
Please answer Gundy
Read 1:35 am
"...."
Kazuichi stared down at his phone, teardrops falling onto the screen.
"H-he hates me.." Kazuichi mumbled to himself.
Kazuichi
Im sorry Gundy please don't hate me
Read 1:35 am
Kazuichi felt his phone buzz and he saw that Gundham was calling him. Kazuichi let it ring for a bit before he picked up.
"H-hello.."
Kazuichi said softly as he wiped away his tears.
"Kazuichi.."
Gundham said softly. Kazuichi sniffled and began to cry more.
"I-I'm s-sorry Gundy! Pl-please don't.. hate mee!" Kazuichi cried loudly. He didn't care if his dad heard him and got angry, Kazuichi could take the 'punishment'. The two stayed silent for what seemed like forever, Kazuichi's sobs growing louder with each passing minute. Gundham
"...Kazuichi.... sweetheart I apologize for ignoring you, please understand that I could never come to hate you... you do not need to apologize, I was the one at fault so.. pl-please stop crying..."
Gundham said softly.
Kazuichi hummed in response and smiled slightly. "I-I'm sorry... I- I love you Gundy.." Kazuichi said softly as he wiped away his tears. Gundham chuckled softly.
"I love you too Kaz."
A Lazy ending for a lazy and sleep deprived person😏idk if imma regret posting this when I wake up💀(it's 4:33 am rn👩🦯)
This took me a few days to write tho lol, I would alway write when I was very upset or crying lmao- these past few days haven't been good for me I guess- and Ik I tend to project a lot of my feelings onto Kazuichi and sometimes Gundham a lot and I'm sorry for that🗿 I can't help myself😕💔
and omfg school is already fucking me in the ass😫 I'm trying so hard to do my assignments and not slack off but it's so hard🧍💔
Uh that's it for now ig uh bye bye *smooch*😚
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