I know | Minho X Jeongin

Chapter 4

Jeongin
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With that call we both got and quickly packed our stuff, finished our drinks and got out.
We jogged, almost ran, towards the JYP building. Luckily it was only a few blocks away from the café so it was a short run.
I looked back every now and then to make sure that minho was following along. He was always right behind me. We passed through few people. Some stopped and looked back at us, seemingly trying to figure out why we were running.
We got to the tall blue JYP building and runned inside. In the corner of my eye I saw two girls in 20's or younger look at us, one of them pointing at as and the other looking confused for one second to shocked the next second. I assume they recognized us but before any of us could react we were inside and past the reception who recognized us.

"What room is our practice at today? " I asked almost out of breath as we entered the elevator.

"32, we have to go 2 floors up" he answered and clicked the button for floor 2.

"Do you think JYP nim has arrived" I asked and turned my head to Minho who was leaning against the elevator wall.

"I doubt that. He is old and slow after all" he responded with a mischievous smile, head still leaned back on the wall.

I couldn't help but chuckle at that. The elevator door opened and we jogged towards the practice room. As we reached the room we stopped and walked. I opened the door slowly feeling my heart up my throat.

As I opened the door the eyes of the members met mine. I looked carefully around the room. No JYP to our luck. I let out a slow reliefed sigh.

"That worked wonders, huh?" Chan laughed and I could see the other members smiling cheeky at us. That's when I noticed.

"omg you guys are ruthless" I almost yelled embarrassed feeling the heat rise to my cheeks.

"JYP isn't coming? Is he?" I heard Minho who was standing beside me now ask.

"No, but our dance instructor will be here in 30 minutes. So thought we would scare you guys a bit to be here in time" Chan explained and walked up to us. "we didn't scare you too much now did we?".

He chuckled and put a hand on my shoulder. I was smiling awkwardly, not believing how easily we feel for that.

"you should've seen your faces tho" Jisung, who was sitting infront of the big practice mirror walls, laughed at us. "Oh shut up" Minho said as he sat down besides him.

I observed as Jisung playfully poked and annoyed Minho, while he annoyed and jokingly pushed him back. They were whispering some stuff between each other that I couldn't hear from here, other than Jisung's laughs and Minho's "stop that" to Jisung every now and then.

"Jeongin? You alright?" Chan who was still standing infront of me asked. "Huh?" I said unsure and almost startled from being interrupted from my thoughts.

"you seemed to space out" he responded with a soft and warm smile. "Oh, yeah just tired from the running" I made up quickly. It wasn't even really a lie.

"I see. Sorry again. At least you got some warm up" Chan warmly smiled the last part. Chan had always been really comforting. It felt safe and like home around him. I really appreciated him for that.

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Minho

It was late at night when I had woken up. All the training had gotten my legs sore and the room's temperature wasn't helping. I sighed and look at the other bed. Felix was laying with his back against deep asleep. I slowly got out of bed trying to not make a sound and disturb his sleep. I got to the window and opened it slightly to get some fresh and cool air into the room. I went back and layed in the bed starring directly at the ceiling.
I was thinking about what I had been about to tell Jeongin back at the café. Already? How could I already be sure that I was crushing on Jeongin? And even if I was, how could it possibly be a good idea to tell him. Whether he returned my feelings or not the outcome wouldn't be good. It would just complicate things. That's why I also rejected Jisung back then. Or at least a part of the reason. If he doesn't return my feelings than it will screw the group dynamic up and make things awkward. If he does return my feelings and we got together... Well that could mess with the group dynamic as well.

But is getting together even a good idea? It would be against the no dating rule. Sure it would be easy too hide since we're group members and we could therefore easily go put. Yet we wouldn't be able to hold hands, kiss or act like a normal couple in public. Now how would that be dating? Having to keep our relationship secret and be careful with who can and can't know. It would be like walking on egg shells. But maybe... Just maybe we could somehow make it work? But how...

I groan deeply into my hands and turn to my side. I then slowly look back at Felix scared that I might have accidentally woken him up. To my luck he is still sound asleep. I turn my head back to the wall feeling exhausted. Not just physically but also just mentally from all the thinking. I close my eyes and even though it takes a solid while I eventually fall asleep to the thought of why everything has to be so complicated.