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XVI, 🥀💨

𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑳 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑴𝑬 , 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑾𝑶𝑵𝑻 𝑮𝑶 𝑵𝑶𝑾 𝑾𝑯𝑬𝑹𝑬 𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑳 𝑴𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑴𝑬 -

⚠️!! TIGGER WARNING !!⚠️

𝐑 𝐎 𝐌 𝐄 𝐄 ' 𝐏𝐎𝐕 -

I was crying in my bed. Gripping the sheets replaying the horrible things that just happened.

"STOP PLEASE YOUR HURTING ME!" kept replaying. God why was I stupid enough to trust him when he said he'd wait downstairs.

I had no clothes on. Just my silk sheets against my skin, that now had blood on them. I got up dragging them with me into the bathroom covering my body.

"Your such a fucking slut. You let mason Fuck what's so different this time love?" His raspy voice gave me chills.

I looked in the mirror staring at myself. All his hand marks had turned into bruises.

I feel so disgusted with myself. I felt like I was a hoe. Like i belonged to no one. No one would ever believe me.

I felt like nothing.

I covered my face falling to the floor crying once again. "Why does it always have to be me God!" I screamed pulling my hair.

My private hurt. I was still a virgin. He took the only thing that ment the most to me. The last thing that made me feel whole as a person.

His rough hands groping my breast, pulling my hair.

The worst part is that hes my Dads best friend. I trusted him with my life.

I turned on the shower immediately getting in. I wanted to scrub the shit out of my skin. Until I felt his dirty hand where off me.

I hates the life I live. I wanted nothing more but my mom brother to be with me.

I couldnt sleep.we where moving back to New Jersey. Good thing u wont be seeing him or his filthy son again.

I dried mt skin not even caring to put coco butter on. I just slipped into my undergarments, sweats and a hoodie.

I didnt even want to sleep in my room anymore. I took those sheets and put them in the fire place lighting them on fire.

My father was at work, packing his stuff to transfer. I put on my house shoes and grabbed my keys.

"Wait where's my phone?" I ran back up stairs to find it on the floor.

I had an unread message.

Daniel Clark
I had a great time sweet heart.
8:42 pm

I blocked his number. "Im asking my dad if we can change numbers as soon as we moves to jersey." I mumbled then i heard the front door open.

"Hey hun im home wanna go grab pizza hut?" My dad yelled. I ran downstairs and wrapped myself in a blanket. He changed his shirt and we went back outside.

"Did Daniel come check on you like I asked?" He said keeping his eyes on the road. I was ready to cry.

"Ye- yeah he... Um he did." I struggled to word. My heart felt out of place.

I just wanted this night to be over.

30 minutes later we came back home with the pizza. I didnt feel like eating so I went to sleep on the couch.

I couldnt really sleep. I kept tossing and turning.

𝐄 𝐍 𝐃 ' 𝐏𝐎𝐕 -

𝐊 𝐀 𝐈 𝐑 𝐈 ' 𝐏𝐎𝐕 -

i woke up from a nightmare. I kept seeing a girl with brown hair screaming with white sheets covered in blood around her.

I got up and ran to the bathroom throwing up the food from the party earlier. I was at Mattia's house. He was in his bed and i was on the couch.

"Yo Kai you good?" He said coming in rubbing his eyes.

"Ye- yeah go back to sleep" I shooed him with one hand and the other hold my hair out of my face.

I felt like my insides where burning. Probably those pills i took from that kid. "What the fuck was that"

I washed out my mouth and drenching my face in cold water.

I keep having these weird dreams of that girl. First it stared with her and her family in a car accident, Then a group of guys circling around her. Then this.

I have to go back to therapy tomorrow. I gotta tell my Psychiatrist. Even though i hate going there,  its just going to eat me up not talking about it.

None of my friends know I have these dreams. Or i go to therapy. Or I use to cut.

They think im just a kid trying new things. Smoking and drinking.

"Kairi turn off the fucking light" Mattia yelled half asleep. I rinsed my mouth out one more time and layed back down.

"Who is she?" Was my last thought before dozing off again.
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  Alijiꪖh speaks -

These topics are things that I've went though. I want all of you to know that if you have been through something similar please let someone know. A close friend, An adult. Someone please this is not okay. It took me three years to tell someone. Its never to late. I love you all very much.