You're Okay

>chapter 5<

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Hours passed slowly the day dragging on. Finally as the sun began to set under the hills behind the school the bell rang. All students were released from their classrooms and sent back to their dorms. The class of 1A marched quickly finally ready for some nice rest and relaxation. The day had been long and boring. With no homework thanks to Aizawa falling asleep they'd have a night to goof around. All students were still curious what had come of their classmate but followed the rule of waiting. Only because Aizawa threatened to expel them.

The chatter and questions about him hadn't died down quite get and their teacher had been looking pretty nervous the closer the clock got to 4. Truth is Aizawa was nervous of Bakuguos new mental state. No one had been able to get him to talk about it. Not even the young students favorite hero All Might. This created an uneasy feeling for the staff. They didn't know much of Bakuguos world. With that little knowledge and him shutting down was only a recipe for disaster. The only thing they could think to do was to keep the students away from him and let him slowly come back out of his shell. They'd of course check in every no and then. But didn't want to risk crowding him to much. Keep it to only a few people. Being All Might, Aizawa, and Mic.

Most of the students seemed to take pretty well to Aizawas rule of "leave the kid alone," aside from the lovely broccoli headed moron. Deku couldn't seem to shake this feeling the whole day. He fought with himself about the choices of what to do and even went to his friends for guidance. They all told him the idea wasn't a great one. But Deku couldn't seem to live with that answer. He was aware of the consequences and knew this may or may not make things worse. But he just had to know. This selfishness was a newer feeling to him and he didn't know if he liked it. But deku could just feel like there was a missing peice. That he may be able to help. Got to love a savior complex.

Deku walked along side his classmates as their building came into view.

"So he's going to probably have a teacher to check up on him. But they aren't dumb enough to crowd him. They already know how Kacchan is. Well I guess he's not exactly Kacchan..." his mumbling was hushed and not in the slightest bit understandable to anyone aside himself.
"H-hey Deku? Are you alright?" Ururaka asked a hand resting lightly on his shoulder to grab his attention.

Deku jumped feeling the sudden weight. His eyes instantly met her and something seemed to just change. His world to himself melted away.

"Oh! Sorry was I being to loud?" He asked with a small smile.

"No no. You're all good. You just kind looked a little frustrated with something. If there's anything you need to talk about-"

"Of course. I know. I really appreciate it. But I'm really fine." Deku quickly cut her off and looked away. He wasn't a very good liar and knew if she tried to pry much deeper he'd end up spilling. Ururaka was one of his best friends but he knew she was against the idea of going to see Bakugou before he was ready. But with his reaction earlier would he ever be ready? What if when he got out he just never wanted to speak to him again? What if the problem was never resolved? Deku just couldn't live with that feeling.

As soon as the door was in sight Deku pushed through leaving Ururaka behind a few steps.
"I'm going to go to my room. I have some stuff I need to do!" Without waiting for a response he shot up the stairs.

Door slamming behind him he panted lightly. That may have looked a little more then slightly suspicious. Probably should have thought of that part sooner. Sinking to the floor his back pressed against the thin wood. His legs tucking up to his chest arms rested around them. Deku let out a soft sigh leaning to hide his face.

"Maybe this was a bad idea..." he whispered to himself muffled by his pants. Slowly raising his eyes up to his small balcony. Part of him wanted to get to Bakuguos room and finally settle the uneasy feeling bubbling in his stomach. But the other knows this is probably a really selfish idea. That could end really well or really poorly. Was he really wanting to take that chance? Deku pulled himself up to his feet grabbing the door nob as a way to balance. He slowly walked to the door and pulled the glass. Leaning down over the rails of his balcony a hand came up and smacked him in the forehead.

"This is dumb. So dumb. What am I even doing? I should just listen to Mr Aizawa and leave him be. If he doesn't want to talk to me that's fine. It's his choice" he sighed pulling his hands down and staring out across the woods behind the school.

Something felt off. Like he was being watched. Deku slowly turned his head only to come face to face with the devil himself.

Bakugou stared back at him eyes wide with an unreadable expression. He was sitting in a small chair wrapped in a blanket. His legs were crossed in the kindergarten fashion of criss cross applesauce. He looked so small sitting there on his balcony alone.

Deku leaned back in surprise not even sure of what to say. Bakuguo never came out of his room so Deku didn't even think for a second he'd find him here. But this Katsuki was different so he probably should expect different. And probably should have been more considerate. But now he was stuck and it was to late.

Bakuguo slowly stood up the blanket falling to the floor. His feet stepped closer looking like a deer in headlights. Suddenly shooting back into his room. The door slammed shut behind him making deku jump almost completely out of his skin. He hadn't even done anything and the boy was terrified. Suddenly pulling his attention back aggressive knocking shook his door at the front of his room. Deku finally snapped out of his own head ran to open it. Before he could say a word or even look at the person waiting for him, arms swung around him holding him tight. The weight pulled him down slightly as if the person was using him as their only way to stand. On instinct he held them up wrapping around to hold on. The surprise suddenly sunk in all at once. It had been so long since he'd felt this. He could feel his arms soften and his legs give in.

The two boys sunk to the floor still holding onto eachother tightly. With a swift motion Katsuki pulled away and grabbed Dekus face. He stared back and realized Kacchan had been crying this whole time.

"K-kacchan?" He whispered

"You're okay- my god- you're okay" Katsuki sobbed his fingers brushing all over Izukus face.
"Of course I am-" Izukus hand raised to rest on top of Katsukis.

"Thank you- thank you so much!" He cried harder. Izuku couldn't tell if he was talking to him anymore. Katsukis arms quickly pulled him back into his embrace. His head slipped into the crook of Izukus neck.
"Im so sorry..." the voice came out was nothing more then a shaky whisper. If the hall hadn't been dead quiet Deku wouldn't have been able to hear it.

"Why are you sorry?" He asked quietly slowly hugging him back. Deku was so scared to touch him in fear that he would just break.

"I-Izuku l-listen to m-me-" fumbling over his words Katsuki couldn't even keep his voice steady for a second.

"Shh shh... I'm listening.." Deku soothed rubbing Katsukis back with care.

Bakugou took a few deep breaths and pulled himself up enough to look right into those green eyes that felt more like a dream. This being real was to hard of a concept for his brain to grasp.
"I let you g-go.. once. B-but I won't ever aga-ain! I w-was wrong! And cruel! Everyday I wake up and can hardly breath cause of the guilt. Of what I did to you. G-god Deku I'm so sorry" his body shook with sobs as he held Izukus face in his hands.
"I never thought you were weak... i-i was jealous.. you were everything a hero should be. I-i couldn't- God why is this so hard!? You know I used to sit up at night and rehearse what I'd say if I had had the chance. But I didn't think it'd happen!- deku i-"

"I forgive you..."

Bakugou froze all the calm that he had managed to gather to speak seemed to defenestrate itself all at once.

"I-i don't know exactly what happened in your world but I know that no matter what Kacchan did I'd forgive him. Hes not perfect and he makes mistakes. But that's what makes him human. And what ever I did to make you hurt this badly- I'm sorry." Deku took Katsukis hands in his holding them up. He had to admit it was weird being this close to his usually extremely explosive friend. "I'm sorry you've been hurting. But what I did was on me. You're not responsible for anyone's actions but your own and-" he was cut off with a sobbing Bakugou practically crushing him in a hug. Deku gasped feeling pain spread around his strong friends arms. As the feeling of his arms loosening finally started he hugged back.

Part of him never wanted this to end. He hadn't felt this close to his friend in years. It was almost like when they were kids.

"Thank you" Bakuguo sniffled as sobs grew softer. "I missed you so much..."

Deku hugged him tighter.
"...I missed you more..."