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Dove Sophie Blair

"McKenna sit down in that seat right now or no tablet time when we get back! And Chase stop yelling I can hear you and I'm three rows behind you!". These kids are going to be to drive me to insanity. Ding. It's a text from Cam! "Hey Dove when do you get off work today?". I unlocked my phone and quickly typed back "otw back from a field trip now. Should be off in an hour. These kids are gonna be the death of me!!!". I hit sent and put my phone back in my pocket. I looked out the bus window. Ugh I can never have a break a moment of peace. When I'm not study I'm at work at a summer camp with these insane kids. Or with my boyfriend who I love btw it's just he can demand a lot of attention sometimes. College, my job , and Cam is a lot to juggle but it's my life. After college I'll hopefully be a pediatric nurse with 2 kids of my own. Married to Cameron in a little white house just minutes outside of a big city!!! That's just sounds so lovely don't you think! I know that sounds oddly specific but I'm a good planner. I like to have an exact plan for everything I do it calms me to be in control. "BLAKELEY IS A BUTT HEAD" screamed Conner. I flew up! "Conner you so have silent lunch and your gonna write an apology note to BLAKELEY". Conner huffed. The bus came to a screeching halt and we all stepped of in a single file line.

3 hours later...
Finally some peace. I'm in my pajamas with a messy bun and a carton of ice cream. I'm listening to music and thinking. I wish I could run away and never read another textbook again,Never say the words time out again, and never be miss perfect again. It's so stressful everyone's eyes are always on you and when you fail everyone knows. I really want to just take a semester off and enjoy life. Learn to live again. Live for me and not others. Have fun and be free not weighed down by expectations. Sure I love to know and be in control and be the example but sometimes it's paralyzing knowing everyone is looking at me and counting on me. Suddenly I feel arms wrap around me I look up to see Cameron hugging me. "Hi my little Dove. How was work" he said smiling. I have a half smile back "good I guess. Same old same old. Testy kids. No help". He chuckled "yeah but nothings to much for my perfect little Dove". He have always said that. I know I should think it's cute and lovely but I kinda hate it like a lot! "Yeah I guess it's just kids are stressful". He looked up confused " Dove your never stressed your Miss Dove Sophie Blair. You can handle anything and everything and still have a smile after" I did a fake smile and nodded. But all I could think is it's hard being perfect all the damn time. All i want is a break someone to understand I'm not perfect and see me and except me. "Do you wanna watch a movie? Maybe Superbad?". Cam suggested. That was the first thing he said all day I liked. I smiled and nodded running to the pantry to make popcorn. "Hey Dovey if you keep eating like this your not gonna stay in a size 0." I wanted to scream but instead continued to make my delicious popcorn! Just to prove him wrong. In the middle of the movie my phone dinged. "Hey Dove we are planning a field trip to Clearwater Beach in Florida. It would be a 3 night trip. All expenses are paid and you would be paid for the full trip! It's in exactly one week. I know this is sort notice but I just got the go ahead from all the parents and hotel. We would love for you to be one of the teachers on the trip!" ~ miss Tina. Just as I finished reading it Cam grabbed my phone and started reading it too. I never understood why he reads all my texts if I'm his perfect little Dove like he says. But whatever I'm used to it by now. "Are you actually gonna do it" he asked with no tone to his voice at all. I snatched the phone back. "Yes ma'am I would LOVE to go I can't wait". I texted back and handed the phone back to Cameron. "Does that answer your question?" I smirked and laid back down continuing to watch Superbad.

Next morning...
I looked in the mirror at my straightened dark hair. I had mascara and blush on. Ripped jeans and a t shirt on. It felt nice to be dressed casual and not all dolled up. I walked down my stairs to see my mom and dad at the dinner table. "Hi sweetheart! What are your plans for the day" asked mom. I sat down and smiled. "Well you know in exactly 6 days I'm gonna be vacationing in Florida AND be getting paid for it so I figured I might as well shop for some clothes to wear while I'm there". Mom lightly laughed. "That's nice who are you gonna go with?" Asked dad. "I was planning on going by my self. You know I never have much time alone so I though the peace and quiet would be nice". Mom frowned "sweetheart that sounds awfully lonely. Why don't you call Cam and asked him to go". I shot up. "Mom no I need me time sometime. I'm my own person and I need my own time for myself. You know?". She frowned and shook her head. "Fine looks all sad and lonely then. Make yourself look bad I don't care" she said with attitude in her voice. I rolled my eyes and got up to grab my purse and keys. "Mom I'll look fine people aren't as judgey as you seem to think they are". I shouted I love them and was on my way. I picked up a few cute outfits and a new bathing suit which I think looks swimmingly! Get it! I had a nice relaxing day by my self and it was so nice. I got home and rested. It was an amazing day.

4 days later...
I had a lazy day and hadn't hear much from Cameron that day at all. Which was fairly odd but we did spend every waking hour together the day before so I figured he was just hanging out with his guys buddy's. I was always angered by that because he never liked any of my friends so I could never see or really have any but he had so many friends. Weather I liked them or not and trust me I did not like all of them! I looked at my phone and it was 6 pm. My phone buzzed and I saw a Snapchat notification from a girl at our school named Kayla. I don't know Kayla that well so I was confused as to why she was snapping me. So I immediately clicked on it. When it loaded and opened I was shocked my phone dropped and I had to pick it back up to to second look. On my screen was a picture of Cameron all over a blonde girl at what seemed to be a party. I mean all over her touching and kissing in a VERY inappropriate way! I was pissed I flew into a blind rage. I stomped my way through the house to get my keys and drive to the party. My mom flew in front of the door. "Why are you so mad? where are you going?" I wanted to push her butt out of the way. "I need to talk to Cameron". She looked down at the floor in defeat. "Please just maintain your reputation". I wanted to scream I stomped even harder to my car. At this point there weren't very many people there. I wondered into the living room where I saw this skinny ass blonde chick in Cameron's lap. I stomped up. "Hey Cameron it's your little perfect Dove" I yelled angrily. He snapped his head around standing up throwing the girl off his lap. She looked a very and walked off in a huff. "Hey baby what are you doing here?" He tried to play it off as if I was stupid now I'm really angry. "Cameron do you take me for stupid". He looked down  and shook his head. " I can't believe you would do this! I'm home all alone because every friend I made you made me DROP! Like trash! But I was mature enough to still let you have yours! And you do this. You lie, cheat, and betray me! And to top it all off when your caught you try to lie to me like I'm stupid! You may be stupid but trust me I am not!!!" I screamed at him. He looked hurt " I am sorry Dove. I'm not perfect you can't expect it" I cut him off mid sentence. "BUT THATS WHAT EVERYONE EXPECTS FROM ME! We're done Cameron D-O-N-E. I'm not gonna be done wrong like this". I walked off and he just stood there looking like a sad lost puppy. Ugh can you believe the nerve of that guy. I drove around for a while that night. I didn't want to go home. I was sad and angry. I wanted to not be perfect for once. I wanted to be angry. I walked around my old childhood park some. I sat in the swings gently rocking forward and back. Just thinking. I wasted years with Cameron. I thought he was my perfect guy. The man of my dreams the dad of my kids. Now I have no plan. no future. I just want to give up and be done. To sit here forever in this peacefulness. It was late I don't know how late. But late enough to not see any cars. I got in my car and drive home. I walked in the unlocked back door and went to sleep. I have never slept that hard in my life.

Next morning...
"Dove Blair wake up!" Shouted my mom. I rolled over and slightly opened my eyes. "I am so angry at you! You better be glad you have a flight to board in less than 4 hours or you would be getting an ear full" she said in her nagging voice. Then it hit me I was going to Florida today. I groaned and put my pillow over my head. "Just get out" I mumbled. She gasped and walked outed slamming the door. I sat up and got ready for the flight. I put on black leggings and one of Cams old shirts because it smelled like him. I put my hair in a messy bun and put no makeup on. I put my white Air Forces on grabbed my suitcase. I hugged my mom and dad and told them I would see them soon. I got in my Uber and go on my flight full of elementary school kids and coworkers I barely like. I put my head phones in and was preparing myself for the 5 hour flight.