Lies, full with cheat, full with tricks. J had started to act differently from previous act. Sugizo knew, he can feel it and it wasn't the first time he caught J come home drunk and ignores him completely. That night, Sugizo had to cancel his plan with few important people just because of managed to caught J at home, information from Inoran. With rushing back driving to their sharing apartment, Sugizo almost hit pedestrian at the street. Unlocking his door and there he saw his man, lying on the couch, watching movie on the LCD screen and laughs. Sugizo put down his stuff and joined J at another couch. "Come home early?"
"Mhm.. no activities." Sugizo smiles, come closer but J caught his wrist. "Don't seduce me, Sugihara. I am too tired. I need a time."
"What's wrong with you? We don't ever had sex for almost a year. I don't know how my dick working without you but almost a year!" Sugizo starts to raise his voice and J stand up, letting go off Sugizo wrist.
"You seems cannot let me got my own time to relax."
"J, we need to talk."
"I'm busy, Sugizo. I need to plan for our Luna Sea." J starts to pick up his phone and at that moment, there is a caller ID, D Break. Sugizo knew who he is.
"Why not you answer it in front of me? It could be important calls." Sugizo trying hard to control his temper with his sinister words.
"What is the thing that you need to talk about?" J start to become angry and so does Sugizo. The situation become tight and J walks inside to the bedroom. Sugizo chasing J and pulls his arm. "Don't you dare turn your fake face away from me!" Sugizo can't control his temper. That night he needs J to clarify where is his position now.
"Stop it Sugizo!" J screamed and that made Sugizo startled. Both of them become silence for a while before Sugizo start to speak again. "What is the thing that I had done towards you until you ditched me away from your life?"
"You should ask yourself why I saw you in an arm of Kiyoharu." J shows his sinister smiles. "I am lazy towards your shit."
"No, its not about Kiyoharu. You are playing with me J. I know all your secret affair with others. You had many, with boys and girls, young or old." Sugizo's tears cornered at the end of his eyes, like a pond. His hand clutches his own chest. It is so hurt.
"you randomly accused me." J crosses his arm and in front of Sugizo, he smiles.
"You are with Daigo from Breakerz. He's married and got a wife! Have a shame on you! You were with Yoshiki and also Yamashita Tomoyuki. What is this J? Who I am to you?"
"Now you already know everything. Since you knew it, then it's good. You may leave this place." That's all J could say and a slap over his face. Sugizo's hand burning but not so worst compared to his heart. "I trust you so much.. You give me fake hopes and dreams about us. You ruin my relationship with Yoshiki by saying he's not worth for me and at the same time you play around like this.. What is this shit, J?" Tears won't stop flow but Sugizo try to remain steady, controlling his emotion.
"I trust you, I love you but at the end, I got hurt.." He walked away from J, entering their room together as Sugizo had started to packing his stuff.
"Sugizo.. I am sorry, that's not what you think.."
"Enough, I understand. We could not be in a good terms anyway. You and I are different now." Sugizo slowly packing his thing, not all but several important things for him to stay at the hotel for that night. "I will come someone to pick up the rest of my stuff.."
"Stay here for tonight, Sugizo. It is dangerous outside.."
"Dangerous? since when you know how to care about me? You have the Daigo and instead, why not you do threesome together with his wife?" Sugizo walked out with a luggage and the night is good for that night.
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There he is, lying on the bed and do nothing. He is trying to break his loneliness and he checked on his schedule for tomorrow. Nothing except few interview and suddenly he got an email, a reminder of his application. Sugizo looks at the contain and he smiles, replying the email. He feels glad, finally he found distraction from remembering J. It is hard to forget J but he believes one day, he will completely forget the man who had show him a word, Fake Love.
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Fake Love (J x Sugizo)
Fanfiction"You won't stop telling me shit, J. How long I have to wait?" Lifting up his legs, he took a glance, one last glance before they break apart as a lover.
