It feels like my whole world has crushed down. I can't find the right words right now. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. It feels like, everything is against me.
Why me? WHY US?
I'm running up the stairs, tears rolling down my cheeks. I can't take this anymore!
I slammed my door shut and let my mixed feelings of disappointment, anger and sadness out.
"Why! why!!? I trusted you Lord, it feels like you don't love us anymore! We don't deserve all of this!"
First my parents lost their job then we hadn't enough money to stay in our house were I had all my childhood memories, so we had to move to a much smaller house. Now this! Really??! As if it's not already enough.
Just kill me already it would me so much easier!
"If you really do exist God, answer me!!" My eyes were bloody shot by now. My mum was pounding on my door and I could tell that she was crying too.
Today is Saturday, we just had our family night where we play games together or just talk, the purpose of this is spending time with the family in laughters. I loved those Saturday evenings until now. We just finished playing Cards and everything was fun until my father gave my mum a nervous glance and she gave him a responding nod with a sad smile.
From that moment I knew something was wrong.
(Throwback)
"Emily.., Brian I've got something to tell you. First I want to start with this. God does some things for a reason we may not understand but everything will be good if you keep trusting him. No matter what happens I will always trust the Lord with all my heart and you should too, he's done a lot in my life and I want you to experience the same things.. even more than I did''.
My palms are so sweaty right now, my heart is pounding so hard, I think my brother is feeling it too.
"Dad we already know that God is a merciful, loving and a kind God, he's even so much more than that, we'll always trust him
now please tell us.. what's going on?'' Brian asked, I was thankful by what he's just said, he chose his words wisely.
Brian is my younger brother, he is only 18 years old wich means 3 years younger than me but if you hear him talk, you would think he's so much older than 18! He's overprotective too and sometimes he behaves as if he is my older brother it's kinda annoying but still cute.
My father has still not answered, as I was about to speak he said:
"I have cancer"
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《 Have faith 》 (Christian Romance)
RomanceEmily has gone through a lot in her life, because of all of that she starts doubting on God if he really does exist. After she knew her dad was sick she has lost all of her Faith. She feels lost, broken and empty. To help her family financially she...
