I suddenly wake up because of a bad dream I roamed my eyes around, all I could see is darkness. I suddenly remember that I am in my room. This is always been my safe place, my comfort zone. In here I could show who really I was.
I looked at the time in my phone. Its just 3am in the morning. I laid on my bed again to try to sleep some more, I keep changing my position to find my comfortable spot but I can't go back to sleep anymore.
I decided to just go to the kitchen and do some ice coffee for myself. Yeah, I'm kind of weird. Ice coffee in the middle of the night. I also made some French toast, this will also serve as my breakfast today. I can't really stand to eat with my family especially to my parents. So whenever I wake up early I will make some breakfast for myself just to avoid having conversations with them.
After eating my breakfast I go back to my room and start reading my notes for my class today. I'm not smart like my sisters so I need to put an effort in my studies just to keep up with them even just a for bit. Being a SHS student was hard especially if you don't like your strand that your in. I am a grade 11 STEM student, well my parents choose this strand for me. They give me a choice actually, its etheir STEM or ABM or I'll stop studying. I fucking hate math and science that's why I don't like these strands but they give they're command already, I can't do anything but to follow because I was raised to follow instructions. Sometimes I don't even question them, I'll just obey without saying a word.
After reading for about 2 hours I decided to get ready for school. I was walking down the stairs when I heard them having such a happy conversations. Edi kayo na masaya. They having breakfast together but they didn't even bother to call me to ask if I've already eaten. I just walk directly outside our house and wait for some jeep or tricycle.
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"tangina!"
I was so exhausted already. They give us a lots of schoolworks again. Our final exam just ended last week and it was just Monday today, 1st day of second semester.
I was walking in the corridor to breath some fresh air to calm myself. Because I knew I would ended up ranting in our classroom but at the end of the day I'll still do and finished everything. That's the only thing I am good at, to follow instructions.
"Omygad"
Shit I was spacing out again. Ellie look at where you are going. I quickly bend down to help her get her books that was all in the ground now.
"I'm sorry miss, di ko sinasadya" I sincerely apologize. "Are you hurt? Let me hel--" I stop when I saw who's the girl I just bump to.
"Its Okey, I'm at fault too"
"I'm really sorry"
"Your a STEM student right? Hello, Im Ghaile" she smile widely at me. She's so friendly and nice that's what I always noticed in her.
"Jerizielle, right?" so she knows me.
"Yes, how did you knew me?" I ask confused. She's popular, I'm not that's why I'm kind of surprised.
"Of course we're on the same school and same year level and you're known in school too."
"Known in school? You must be kidding me."
"You don't believe me?" she asked pretending that she's hurt. I laughed, she's cute. "Your always on the stage every class distribution of cards because you're always on top of our year level plus I always see you around cause haller magkatabi lang kaya tayo ng room before saka you look so nice kaya"
Ang daldal naman pala nito. This is our first conversation tapos ang dami ng sinasabi.
"Look so nice? Malabo ba mata mo?" I sarcastically said. Tho my mood changed a bit as she mentioned that she knows me because I'm an achiever in school. People would just recognize you if you excelled but if not you're just nothing.
"What!? Its true"
"Your the first person to tell me that" I pointed out to her. " They always say I look like a bitch or sobrang sungit at mataray ako"
Her eyes wided, she's really cute "Really? But.." she look closely at my face like she's finding something in there. She's also a bit creepy e?
"Anyway basta you look nice. Let's be friends. I really like you, you know?"
I didn't speak, I don't want to have friends. I don't want to be attached to anyone because I'm just creating another heartache. I was find being alone, it was peaceful this way. Less complication, less problems.
I think she noticed my disaproving reaction that's why she speaks again. "Basta we're friends na Okey? Bawal tumanggi" she demanded.
"No" I coldly response to her.
"Wala ka ng magagawa, friends na tayo. Pwede tayong sabay mag lunch pag tugma schedule natin tapos papakilala pa kita sa iba kong friends."
She's so talkative. She still keep on talking about her plan but I just didn't listen anymore. I know her group of friends and I don't like them and I also think they don't like me. I don't care anyway.
"I'm not interested" I said firmly cutting her off.
"What? Why? It would be fun. You'll meet a lot of new people and experience different things. You know I always notice you being alone all the time, may mga kumakausap naman sayo pero parang about school lang lagi topic nyo. Come on, highschool life is more fun with friends beside you and al--"
"I don't want friends and I don't need friends. Stop bugging me and make me do things I don't like. We just met minutes ago and you're acting like we're so close already"
I immediately walk away after I said that to her. Its a wrong move to walk in our corridor I should just stay inside our room.
"That was harsh" I stop walking when I heard his voice behind me. I look back to see if I'm guessing it right. It was Drei.
"I'm dissapointed" He said as he walked away.
