pet peeve

Growing up and still till this day my biggest pet peeve is getting lumped in with other people. When I was younger if my mom was mad at my brother she would always say "It really makes me angry when you guys...." she can't just be mad at my brother. She has to lump me in and put the blame on me as well. Drives me crazy. But what makes me more insane is when I pile into an Uber with you to go to a second, third, or fourth location. In search of the next best party. In search of something more. My pet peeve is when you look back at me and say "Why are we like this?" This question puts me at a loss for words. I'm unsure what you're asking. I don't know what you feel at this moment but you say it all the time. You've said it every time I've hung out with you and the party extends. We're both here putting ourselves in a situation, but it must be for different reasons. I'm unsure if you're feeling insecure or incredibly aware of your addictions. I never know what you're feeling at that moment. I know what I'm feeling. I know I don't want to be lumped into your convoluted feelings. I don't want your insecurities projected onto me. But in those moments I'm looking for fun. Looking for freedom. Looking for control. I'll always look for fun, freedom, and control. That's who I am and will continue to be. I'm not here for judgment. I'm here to share. Share my life with you, all of you. I've already found my soulmate and it's me. So buckle up and I'll tell you. This is why I'm like this.