loss //technoblade x reader//

|| nineteen ||

~two weeks later~

"me and zak went metal detecting today, and i found this," i sit my the hospital bed, showing him the coin i found.

he weakly smiles, "what type is that,"

"i have no idea," i look closely at the coin, it wasn't a modern coin, it was very different. "but here," i extend my arm, letting him have it.

"you're givin' it to me?" he says, not taking it yet. i nod my head, encouraging him to take it. "i can't take that,"

"well i'm giving it to you, so yes you can," i playfully smile.

"y/n, i'm probably not gonna be here tomorrow," 

he looks at me, his eyes finding my saddened ones.

"don't say that." i look away from his eyes, now at the coin. i knew there was a possibility that he could die, but i had hope. "you can make it." my voice had become quieter.

he simply smiles, and looks at the ceiling, "the doctor said i was most likely gonna die tomorrow,"

he said it so bluntly, it caught me off guard. "when did he say that?"

"this mornin',"

i couldn't stand the way he said it like it was nothing. my eyes had already started to water, feeling the loss already. before the tears came falling down, i hugged him, finding it embarrassing for him to watch me cry.

by this point, we had already knew we liked eachother, it was obvious. yet we hadn't gotten together, because he insisted he would die soon, so what was the point. i didn't like the idea, but i also didn't want him to be in a relationship with me if he didn't want to. but i understood why.

he weakly wrapped his arm around me, and i could hear his soft heartbeat. it was very quiet, and i knew he was slowly dying.