F**k You

It'll be okay

Sensitive topics discussed

"Everything should be good to go soon" Tae said with a smile while I cooked a dinner for the nine of us 

"Good" I smiled "I'm nervous though.. I'm trying to learn Korean before we move, and Namjoon has been helping but I swear he gets frustrated with me. Not as frustrated as Kook used to get with me though" I giggled 

"It's only been a full month since we met you, I'd say you're doing pretty good! Plus, once we get you in Seoul, you'll see. No one minds of you don't have the language a hundred percent, they'll appreciate the effort" 

"That's good to know then" I smiled 

"Oh, I meant to ask how you were doing with the new Sig" 

"Pretty good" I shrugged as I chopped some carrots to add to the stew "Yoongi says I'm better than he thought I'd be" I nodded "I guess that's good. I'm not too nervous to use it, just nervous if I ever have to use it on a person" 

"You'll be fine" he smiled widely at me 

"How old were you..when you had to.." 

He shifted in his seat, his whole demeanor changed from playful and soft, to dark. Like a light switch had been flicked in his head, he was shutting down. 

"I was eleven when I watched a man kill my parents. My brother and I had been in the garage trying to fix his go-cart, he was eight. I ran into the house to grab my dad's big flashlight and I saw him. I was so scared I had no idea what to do, I just knew I had to protect Hyung-sik so I stayed quiet and backed out of the house while my mother screamed and he stabbed her. I wanted to save her, she still had a chance. But I had to let her go to save my baby brother" he kept a serious look on his face, he didn't blink, and his eyes stayed dark "I went to the garage and told him to stay put, that I had to go to the neighbors and ask for a flashlight. I told him not to go into the house, to just stay out in the garage until I came back, I didn't want to risk the man spotting him in the yard or anything, when I came back from using the neighbors phone to call the police, I heard him scream from in the house, when I looked into the window, I watched him slit my baby brothers throat while he flailed around trying to get out of his hands" 

"Tae" I gasped as my eyes were watering uncontrollably 

"I was in foster care, too old to be adopted really. I was hollow, a bad seed..the police never found him, but my family weren't his only victims. They had been trying to get to him for months before the incident. When I was nineteen, Yoongi introduced me to this, explaining what they were doing.. I asked him to show me. I practiced everything I could as often as I could. I let it consume me. And then finally, at twenty one, I saw him. I stalked him, he thought he was slick, still a free man, still suffering no consequence for his actions" he shook his head 

"When I finally had him cornered, I tortured him. We kept him alive for weeks, everyday I did something else until finally, I shot him in his face. That was my first time, the easiest time, and the only time I killed a man with a gun. I've killed plenty of people since then, men like him, but not with a gun. That's my last resort. Reserved for a special kind of scumbag" 

"Tae" I whispered as I wiped my face "I'm so sorry" I walked over to him and sat in his lap wrapping my arms around him tight, he wrapped his arms around my waist and nuzzled his face into my neck as he tried to focus on his breathing, I felt his tears slowly hitting my skin and dampening my shirt "I'm so so sorry love" I ran my hand up and down his back while the other played with his hair "they didn't deserve that, and neither did you" I kissed his temple 

I was so fucking wrong for ever thinking that any of them were bad people. 

They're hurt people, but not at all bad.