I held her hand in mine. Like it is going to be the last time I will even hold it. We were friends for a bit of time and we bonded. But now, I want to tell her, how i feel. so maybe, it will be the last time i hold it. i don't care. i just want her to know. okay here i go.
i made her look at her me.
"hey, i have to tell u something" i told her.
"what is it?" she asked.
"well, i don't know if you'll be even friends with me after this, but-"
"yes? heh you think i will ever let you go? never!"
"i am in love with you"
it was the moment. the moment of my life that changed everything. i felt my legs go all wobbly waiting for her answer. but i looked down and didn't look at her. i cant look at her. what if she is fuming with her anger and disgust? i will never recover again if i see that.
then i heard her sniffle.
i looked upto see her crying. covering her mouth and looking at me very lovingly. like she just found something she lost. i kept staring at her, confused.
"i-i'm sorry, i didn't mean to hurt you, please don't cry" i assured her. but she kept crying and wiping her face.
"i'm not hurt, in fact, it's quite the opposite" she told me, smiling at me. her smile was the last thing i saw before her lips brushed against mine and her hands cupped my face. instinctively, i closed my eyes and held her close to me, before kissing her delicate lips on mine. i don't know how long we kissed in a cafe with cute background music playing. all i heard was her breathing and my heartbeat in my ears.
as we pulled apart, i saw her cheeks are red. she is so cute. i love her so much.
i held her hand as i asked "will u go on a date with me?" from her. she thought for a while. "two girls, in a cafe, with jazz playing in the background, kissing and holding hands? sounds like a date to me already"
what have i done to get this girl? she is the girl everyone wishes to have. and she-
wait....
we KISSED???!!!
so what are we now?????? girlfriends?? just dating???? oh my god, will i be able to marry her?? marry?? jeez don't go that far you stupid ass.
"so what are we now?" i asked her, not showing the internally screaming mind of mine to her. "what do u want us to be?" "well, it's your choice, i confessed to you so," i looked down and fumbled with my fingers.
"well it seems my answer wasn't clear, here, lemme clear it for you" she pulled my face onto hers and kissed my lips slowly. again. oh her lips feel delicate. so soft. i pulled away from her.
"be my girlfriend"
"wh-what? oh god i didn't think you'd actually ask me the question??" she stuttered. and i chuckled at her flustered face. "what did you think? that i'm gonna pass an opportunity to be a hopeless romantic??" i cackled hard as she frowned. oh god this girl. i love her so much.
"well then if i say yes, your'e mine"
"e-eh??" damn girl, you know how to make me reverse flustered, please take pity on me oh god. she raised an eyebrow waiting for my answer. i don't know what came over me but, i grabbed her shoulders and started to kiss her. i can sense that she was surprised but she she kissed me back. damn. three kisses in thirty minutes???
i pulled away to whisper, "yes my love i'm yours", and watched her cute puffy cheeks go scarlet like the red sunset. then i pulled her into a kiss again.i wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her close to me while pushing her head back to kiss her deeply. i felt her beautiful soft hands wrapping themselves around my neck as i kept kissing her. i wanted to pull her so close, so close to hear her heartbeat, and never let go.
for once, as we kept kissing, i felt like she was something that i can't see an ending to. i will never let go of the hand cupping my face right now. i will never let go of the smiles of us in between our kisses.
'i will never let go of you' i promised to myself. 'i am in love with you'
and i felt she thought the same too when she pulled away and looked at me with her pretty, dark, shining eyes.
i love you.
