My Lily R

January 9th, 2021, 1:19AM

Hours ago it was the 8th, the day of my lovers birthday, oh boy did I plan a lot for him. Let's start from the beginning, I woke up early for my google meeting, considering I have school, I neglected to do any of my homework, it's the weekend, I can procrastinate a little, can't I? Anyways, I spent the whole morning preparing this discord server for my lover, honestly, it was bad at first, I didn't know how to set up a server at all! But I got a bunch of pals in the server with me, and through that, we essentially threw a virtual surprise party for him! For my lover!

Oh man his reactions! I can tell just how happy he was! Of course I had to lie to keep the surprise, but after he joined, BAM, he was so shook! I live for seeing things like that, those wholesome moments, it makes me happy~ Anyway, after my lover joined, we all made the server way better, we got bots, and more! Now it's like a little party server! It was nice, we voice chatted essentially the day away!

It was fun, much more fun than school work. I had a blast, and so did everyone else. But I could just tell how happy my darling was. His face was lit up like a light! It makes me so happy to see how happy he is! When I met him, he was a depressed mess, now, 4 years after knowing him, he's just so.. so happy. Especially with me. I like that. It gives me a sense of purpose.

Later that night we all kind of relaxed, most of us in the server live across the would after all. But me and him we spent the night like many other before, calling and driving each other. After the call however, I suddenly got lots of unsettling or maybe even dark thoughts. Why I have no idea, maybe it was just a depression episode, but my boyfriend helped me out if it, and knowing that he's here for me, knowing that he loves me. That makes me happy, hell, I was heart breaking down, but his reassurance calmed me instantly.

That's what I love about him, what I cherish. A simple but if reassurance has be calm, even in my most darkest times. Of course he'll let me let out a cry, and whether he hears it or not, I do. But his loving words, his caring and loving nature, it soothes me. If there's anything I can tell from my relationship with him, despite what it is...

He's the one.❤️