Funny thing dreams. They seem real while you're asleep but when you wake up you realize you couldn't feel anything. And then you start to see everything that was wrong in the dream. Well, you can't feel anything physically. Emotions however can be felt as if you were awake. You can feel loss and fear and happiness and gratitude even. The same thing happens when you dream while awake. When you have goals and you imagine what life would look like if you were to accomplish what you want. You are not physically there but you feel every emotion. Sometimes you forget what you were dreaming about, and sometimes you wish you forgot. Sometimes, you wish your dreams were not yours but someone else's and that you didn't have to deal with them, even if that's selfish and then you realize how selfish that is and feel bad. For a second.
From a psychological point, dreams are things that you haven't dealt with when you are conscious and so you deal with them subconsciously in your dreams until you deal with them when you are actually awake. From a more spiritual point, dreams can mean many things. Sometimes dreams can be things that are going to happen, things that are happening places your consciousness can go to, or even messages from beyond. Sometimes of course dreams can merely be the last thing you ate before bed or that scary movie you watched in the morning so it was less scary and have been successfully trying to erase from your memory until the exact moment you turned off the lights in your room and all of the worst images came rushing back into your mind and oh look now you have a nightmare.
In any case, dreams are what got me into this mess. Dreams are what has been tormenting the women in my family for hundreds of years, and yet I am the one who has to deal with this whole clusterfuck. I don't even know what other word or words could be used to describe this whole thing. Grammy calls it luck. She said I was "chosen by the universe this family receive a great gift". Well, with all due respect universe, you can go fuck yourself. Honestly couldn't the universe just give me a cat and call it a day?
In any case, if dreams got me into this, maybe they can get me out of it. Or not. Honestly, at this point, I'm just hoping I don't die.
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I saw it in a dream
Fantasy"Oh how sweet, you had a dream about me! If it's not too embarrassing may I ask what it was about?" "I fear when I do that shit-eating grin will vanish from your face Lux" "And why is that Andy?" "Because in my dream I saw that my knife ended up i...
