Mistake or Miracle

Chapter IV

Chapter 4 :Because of you

♥By: Kelly Clarkson♥

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

♥Alexis P.O.V♥

I can't believe that someone who is supposed to love you could do that. I didn't think protecting me was that cruel. I only asked for one night of freedom. And what do I get? Locked into my own bedroom by my own father.

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The next morning I woke up. I to the door. Yep still locked. I haven't eaten since yesterday at school. I think they forgot about me. No! Don't say that Mom never forgets. Just then I hear arguing downstairs.

"What the hell was that?!?!" Wait a second, mom never uses foul language. What's going on.

"Who do you think you are locking your only daughter up in her own room!!"

"What was I supposed to do? She was going out with some boy!"

"That's not your decision to make is it? It's her God damn life!"

Boy, Mom must be really mad, but why I'm not really that special.

OMG!! Zeke, I totally forgot to tell him what was wrong! Surely enough he tried to call me four times! Oh, I'm the worst girlfriend ever. That's right I said girlfriend. I have to get out of here!

I texted Zeke, Hey, I'm really sorry I will explain everything just meet me at the park in 15 minutes.

Now how do one get out of this room. Mom! Mom could get me out of this room.

I called to mom, "M-mom?"

I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. She unlocked the door, I then started to cry.

"Oh, honey I'm so sorry your father did this to you."

I sniffed "I-it's ok I guess"

No it's not thats crossing the line its your life.

"Well, I forgot to tell Zeke about what happened, yesterday. So, I was going to go talk to him in person but, I dont really know how."

"What do you mean honey... Oh, you father. You know what I'll handle him you go."

"A-are you sure?"

"Postitive! Now go."

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As I walked down to the park wondered if Zeke would forgive me. I mean I'm kinda new at this.

Then I saw him sitting on a park bench. He looked up and smiled. I thought he was mad at me. I smiled back and looked down. I walked over and sat down.

"I'm really really sorry. Oh, I dont know what to do, I'm really new at this. I mean if you don't want to go out anymore I get it. I really do I was a jerk for not calling you." I kept on rambling, he then put his finger to my lips to, put it in a nice way to shut me up.

"I'm not mad at you."

My face lit up. "Your not?"

For some stupid reason I had to ask, "Why?"

"I was a little too forward with you, did I scare you away?" He asked hesitantly

"W-what? No. Of course not. It's just that..."

He looks over. "It's just, what?"

I stay silent, I mean should I really tell him, I just met him. I think he gets the idea, because he doesn't push it. I really hope this works out, because he is probably the ticket away from home.