Things i just need to write to myself

i dont have a good title here

I recently got a girlfriend and i feel like i should be happy, and when we hang out together i am, but it's like the second she leaves i feel down. If we're texting i'm happy but when we stop i feel down, i think the reason for that is because the overwhelming joy that i get when i see her makes me happy, because love is hard to find so when she leaves it reminds me of the sad life that i live even though i have so much to be thankful for, when she's there it's like the sun coming to my world then eventually like the sun she has to go and then the moon comes back to me.

p.s sorry for how corny this is