Not so opposite

Chapter two

Emma's POV

Alex and I had a great night. We watched a ton of movies and even ended up falling asleep together on the couch. I love Alex so much and I hate lying to him but how am I suppose to tell him that I cut myself when I'm the one that helped him stopped by telling him that he was so important and that people love him and care about him and that it hurts them when he hurt himself. I'm such a terrible girlfriend. Alex deserves so much better then me but he can't see that. Sometimes I feel like I'm holding him back and that he would be so much happier without me. But then he tells me that he loves me and that I'm the most important person to him and it literally just breaks my heart. I honestly Don't know what to do. Maybe I should just break up with him, he would be so much happier. Sure it might hurt for a little while but it'll be so much better in the long run. I'm so selfish. I just don't want to let him go. I want him to be mine forever and always. Is that to much to ask because sometimes it feels that way.

Everything in my life is just so complicated right now. The stress is eating me alive. But the only thing that's helping me deal with stress is slowly going to kill me. Funny how the thing that helps me is the same thing that's hurting me. God I'm such a fuck up. I need to learn how to manage everything that's going on without either cutting or just feeling numb to the point it feels like there's nobody. To make things better my mom started drinking again and along with drinking comes fighting. Not just yelling and screaming either, but hitting and beating. My moms been the reason for my pain for as long as I can remember.

Alex's POV

Emma and I had an amazing time but I felt like she was keeping something from me. She wasn't her normal bubbly self. When I asked her what was wrong she said nothing that she was just stressing over the up coming election but I feel like there's something more and she's not telling me. What if she's cheating on me or something?!?!? Emma is my everything and I thought I was her everything. No I'm being insane. Of course she's not cheating on me Emma's not that type of girl. She's sweet, caring, nice, funny, and gorgeous. God is she gorgeous.

(A/N I feel like this story is just a bust and I'm not sure if I want to keep writing it. This was my first ever attempt and so far it sucks. I've tried to write a few other things and they're a lot better if you wanna check 'em out.)