There she is, in front of me, alive but dead inside, you can see it in her eyes, there's no spark there, there's no hope, there's nothing left.
I knew this was going to happen, but even knowing that I stayed with her, because I loved her and I still do.
I love her smile, I love her nose, I love her dark brown eyes, I love her long brown hair with blonde tips, I love everything about her.
I said we were gonna last but now I regret those words, not because I regret being with her, but, because I regret the feeling of her leaving me.
You're going after something I can't compete with, something good for you, something you've been waiting for years.
You are going after death, it was your happiness, your freedom and air.
I can't live without you but you can't live anymore.
You need this, you win this, after years of faking happiness, you deserve to rest.
I wish you to be happy without dying, I wish you to be happy with me and not without me and I wish you to be free without taking mine.
You were everything that was okey and I was the little that wasn't wrong.
I was your safe place when you had nowhere to run.
I was your happy place but soon I wasn't.
We didn't see the change, we didn't notice when everything fall apart until you could stand anymore, we just didn't notice and even if we had it wouldn't change anything.
It was fine while it last but you just couldn't do it no more, so it's okey.
Go.
Leave.
Get away.
You are not pathetic, you are not running away, you are not giving up.
You just are finally getting your reward.
Goodbye.
See you in another life...
