Prompt: You have a rough night and the NACH girls are worried about you.
TW. mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts. please please, if you are going through something like this or simply having a hard time, REACH OUT. i seriously love each and everyone of you.
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i woke up to the feeling of nails running through my hair, the smell of pancakes, and the sound of voices and a tv. moving my hand a little bit, anna took it in hers, playing with my knuckles.
"anna. do you want a pancake?" i heard the loud voice of madi yell. they must've came over early this morning.
"no thanks." anna said, her stomach vibrating as she talked.
"anna you need to eat. i understand you're worried-"
worried about what. what was sab talking about.
"i'll eat when she wakes up."
"okay." sab probably didn't want to argue with my stubborn girlfriend.
"alright, why were we paged here this morning at 8 fucking am?" cynthia spoke, clearly tired.
"you sure she's out?" eva asked. i made sure i looked as asleep as one could.
"yeah." anna responded.
"maybe we should go talk somewhere else just in case she wakes up." i think lauren made that suggestion.
"i'm not leaving her."
i was concerned why anna was acting so possessive. i didn't do anything wrong.
"okay. we don't have to leave her. what's up though?" clearly sab didn't even know. i was getting more and nervous, wanting to sit up and question them. but, if i wanted to figure out what i did, i needed to stay quiet.
"this." anna lightly grabbed my wrist and immediately knew what was was happening. i went to pull my wrist away. once the girls realized i was awake, i got right off of anna. without even giving them time to talk i ran up the stairs, hearing them follow behind. getting into my room, i slammed the door and locked it.
pulling at my sweatshirt sleeve, i bumped into my dresser. kicking it, i knocked over my stuff, making a loud noise.
"natalie. open the door." anna's distressed voice came from the other side, banging on the wooden door. going towards to door, i bit my lip. i was debating on letting her in, my mind screaming words at me.
'she just wants to use you'
'anna will never actually love you'
'if you let her in she'll just break you'
"i can't." i say back to her, leaning my forehead against the door.
"natalie please. i know you've had it rough lately, and i want to know what's wrong. i want to help."
"anna you're just gonna hurt me. you're gonna use me like they all do!" i whisper-shouted, banging my head against the door lightly.
"i would never hurt you. i would never even lay a hand on you unless you told me to. the last thing i'd ever want to cause any harm to you. secondly i would never use you. you're all i've needed. i need you natalie, more than you'll ever know. but i need you to know right now that i'm here and i want to get you help. i'll be there every step of the way, and so will the girls." i could tell anna was crying now, making me finally release a tear. lifting my hand up to the doorknob, i unlocked it. backing away as it opened, anna rushed in grabbing my fragile body into a hug.
