Para Sayo

Hey you,

It's been far too long my love.

More than three years I haven't heard from you.

I have so much to say, and yet, I don't know where to start.

Words sound broken in my head.

Words are hurting like my head.

You are still the hopeless romantic that you are.

Hopeless and helpless.

Only now, the romantic only peaks now and then.

It's there, just not as present as it was before.

You've been through so much my love.

The years did not only took your youth.

It took so much more than that.

Innocence.

And I had people tell me that it is something you should still be thankful for.

The experiences.

The lessons.

And I had people tell me it is what makes you the person you are today.

But I believe in different things.

I believe that there are more delicate ways to lose innocence.

I believe that there are more delicate ways to be broken and learn from it.

Oh my love, how much I would give to be able to get my innocence back,

to be able to experience things the first time differently.

I believe that being beaten slowly and consistently by the person, that one person, is the type of hell that exists her on earth.

I believe that your mind is so much tougher than your body. But it could also be as delicate as a glass.

I believe that your heart is only capable of loving someone else so much until you realize that you deserve to love you first

And in the years you stayed silent, keeping your mind to yourself,

I also know that you were trying to piece yourself together.

Putting up a better armor. Forming your own defence.

And in doing so, the walls you built blocked the colorful and vibrant view.

It isn't good, but it wasn't so bad either.

Because you might have lost the sunrise and the sunset,

But you know that the sky is still there.

The walls you built casts a shadow that makes things a little bit gray.

But at least there's no chance of anyone infiltrating you like before.

At least you know you're in control.

It's only you now.

And I know it get's lonely sometimes my love.

And I know that being strong and being happy doesn't always come in pairs.

And that's okay.

And I am thankful that you know that it's okay.

And I had people tell me that there are things I should be thankful for.

But there's only one thing I really am thankful for.

I am thankful that despite losing so much, you didn't lose you.

Hey you,

I'm thankful for you.