I Love You

i wish i could

I wish words could express hiw i feel about you, i wish also understood what ot is that i felt towards you then that could be easy to explain why i did what i did what i did. I know you think that i had every intention to hurt you but the truth is i didn't have the intention to do so . I know it's unbelievable if i said that it would be easy if we just went back to the way things were because then nothing was weird between us and the conversation used to flow so very well but nowadays i always tend to find myself having so much to tell you but i always get tongue tied because am not so sure what to say and also i don't wanna give you the wrong kind of vibe but the truth is i actually have no idea how i feel about you it would be easy if i could convince my self of what i have towards you but i can't because not even words can describe the feelings i have for you. I would say its love but the that would be a lie since i have never really experienced that feeling that we call love and even if i did then it's sad to say i can't really remember how it felt. But the truth is although i see you alot and talk few minutes with you i do miss you but i don't really know how to go back to the way things were between us . I feel us drifting apart each and everyday and am not so sure what to do about it always feels like am forcing something between us something that was there maybe and i didn't really notice until it was no longer available.  I feel jealous but am not so sure about what because the truth be told there is really nothing to be jealous about sometimes i feel left out and alone but it had because its had to explain how you feel left out on something that doesn't really exist. I wish i could call and maybe call you sweetheart and not feel so weird for useing a word that is never really in my vocabulary u wish i would say it's easy to admit that i kinda like but am afraid of the society is gonna say about . I wish i could admit to you of how much i miss the useless conversation we used to have before everything  became wired with us they say you never miss the woter till the well run dry fun because the water is there but i can fetch it since am not so sure an thirsty for it.  But i hope as time goes maybe some day its going to stop being wired between us and we can continue having the conversation that we used to have i now it not doing to be the same since someone else might have occupied the space that yo hoped i would but i hope its going to be better in a way that i will be able to call you my good friend who i can be able to share just about anything without  the fear of being judge.