Your POV
I was Luke's ex and walked into Julies studio of course Julie was my friend I watched their rehearsals and stuff. When I walked into the studio
I saw the way Luke & Julie look at each other it made realize
'Was me and Luke's chemistry not real? Did he not feel happy around me?' I thought to myself as I watched them quietly
Julie looked over "oh hey y/n! Wanna watch us rehearse again" she asked me
I nodded quietly not wanting to talk right now and not let the jealousy take over me...
After they rehearsed I clapped
Luke smiles as I looked at him he looked at Julie the way I loved him...
I looked down and got up Running fingers through my hair knowing I wasn't perfect..
Luke looked at me "you okay?"
I nodded "um yeah. Just have to head somewhere." I said and left them confused of my actions.
I was at home and threw my bag on the floor on my studio and began to play piano and sing
Feeling used
But I'm still missing you
And I can't see the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
I remember this song when we broke up and still do as I sing it
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
I tensed up as I sing the words tearing up hoping the boys didn't appear right now..
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
The three boys appeared in her studio hearing her sing the song she wrote days before they died..
I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Luke looked at me seeing the tears in my eyes as I sing this song
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too
And I'm always tired but never of you
Luke bites his lips remembering this song he wrote with me but he loved Julie now or did he?
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Luke sighs as he poofs out and Reggie and Alex were confused why Luke did that as I sing
Oh, oh
Keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
Alex poofs out knowing he shouldn't be there so did reggie.
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
I started to cry while singing wishing I was Julie with Luke..
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
I then wipe the tears off while singing
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
I kept singing as I played the piano standing up as I sang the song he and I wrote months ago.
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
I kept singing while standing up as I played the piano singing
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song
I sit back down on my chair singing while playing piano
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I tear up again as I sang this song singing it with tears in my eyes
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
I kept singing as tears came flowing down my face
All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
I kept playing the piano roughly now as I cried my eyes out while singing
Yeah, all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me?
I stopped playing piano thinking 'did Luke ever cared?'
That's when Luke poofs in...
I looked at him wiping my tears and got up going over to him "hi.."
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
Luke looked at me "hi." He said
It was really awkward talking to him but I really did miss him and still love him but he loved Julie..
To be continued?
