I feel so ugly and awkward, I hate the way I look the way I speak, the way I act. I'm sitting in my room and wanna harm myself But I can't bc I promised my bf I'm not gonna hurt myself. I can't eat bc I feel I don't deserve it, I don't deserve to breathe even. It's in my head it's what I think every second. I wanna cry and scream bc I have so much inside. I'm lost. I'm tired to fight with my demons.
I wanna f u c k i n g die ~
Probably no one is gonna read that and no one cares how I feel. I don't care about fans and how many ppl will read that. I'm just telling my thoughts to maybe feel a bit better. Only my bf keeps me more stable and he is love of my life but still it doesn't mean I'm not gonna feel this way. Its just a part that I'm going through mostly.
