Hey guys, this is Blakes little sister! My names Ella.
Alright, so i've just gone through a hard break up and Blake wanted me to write it, see if i can get out my feelings through story. So here we are.
My names Ella and i was dating this guy named Matt. Now Matt was a gentleman, never pressured me into anything, tried to force things he liked but i didnt down my throat, i dont know what went wrong between us. We were together for just over 10 months.. now im only 16 but thats a long time for me. I kept punishing myself thinking that i did something wrong, it was all my fault, and i tried to hard to get him back, i tried crying out to him, being that silly little girl who got her heart broken the first time. It honestly felt like it, it felt like he got my heart and played soccer with it.
Okay girls, now heres my advice. Fuck boys, have the best time of your life being single, go out have fun with all your girl friends, be single, dance to gay music from the 80's.. Just enjoy your life and dont be so caught up with boys. Dont go for the bad ones cause you think its an adventure, they wont do any good for you. Matt wasnt one of those bad guys as such but still, looking back i realised i pushed away all my close mates, my brother who i love dearly, and even some of my close guy mates.
After the break up i got real depressed, i started self harming, thinking suicidal thoughts, and i even had a suicide attempt. All this made me realise how stupid i was, cause when Matt found out about it, he never visited me, sent me a message on facebook, nothing! Depression isnt something im over, it will never go away but i have managed it now.
Its now been a month or two since Matt and i broke up and now i am having the best time, its our holidays here in Australia and we get a month of school, im going out, having a blast with everybody and not caring about anything in the world. I've gotten really close with this guy again, him and i were always good friends but now we're closer then ever. And you know what, i really think im starting to like him. I dont know, hes different from matt, he makes me feel butterflies and when he smiles and when we play fight i just sit in awe of him (yes im whipped, sush you ;) )
Right now,being single is fun, you get to flirt with who ever, hook up with hot guys (hoping my brother doesnt read this bit, Hi Blakey. Love you xo) and i get to focous on my dancing and singing. I cant even describe how im feeling right now, dont get me wrong, i loved having matt as a boyfriend, i was completely loyal of him but its good to feel free, like a bird yeah?
Boys i know if you read this you're proably thinking that i hate you all and that i think you all suck. Partly is true yeah (jokes i love you) but i know you guys arent the only ones who hurt people, ive seen my best guy mates get hurt by girls. And i'll give you the same advice as i did for the girls, just go out with mates and have the best time possible. Life it up while your young!
Oh and dont do what i did, do go into a depression and kick everyone who matters out of your life. ily xo
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