Trapped with Your Ex {Eren Yeager x Reader}

II- Realization

𝟺 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚐𝚘...

It was a warm summer night in the month of June. Graduation was a few weeks ago which meant that high school graduates from everywhere would be getting ready for college and starting their new lives. Some would be going away and others staying in their hometowns. There was what seemed to be not a single cloud in the sky, making millions of stars able to be seen. You and your boyfriend, Eren, laid on a large blanket on a hill that had an overlook of the small city of Shiganshina. The noises of the city mixed in with the noises from the night and forest behind you both.

You wore a short white dress with various lace detailing as for Eren asking you to dress nicely for your date tonight. You couldn't help but notice that he has seemed very nervous the whole night. It was strange because he was never nervous on dates anymore. He got over it a couple of years ago considering how long the two of you had been together.

Glancing over at him you admired him. The way his teal eyes almost seemed to glow in the night, how his hair fell perfectly in place, and his beautiful face that you loved so much.

You snuggled closer to him, moving your head to his chest, and entwining your legs together. You listened to his heartbeat for a bit before breaking the silence.

"Hey Eren, is something wrong?" you asked him, lifting your head up to make eye contact.

"Of course not, why would it be?" he responded, giving you a kiss on the forehead and making you giggle.

"Well I don't know, it's just.. you seem a bit nervous tonight.." you hesitantly told him.

He sat up and you followed. "There actually is something on my mind."

"Really?" your eyes widened as you wondered what he could want to tell you. Maybe he was leaving too?  And about that... You should really tell him about the scholarship you got at Marley University soon... "Well, what is it?"

"Well, I've been thinking about this a lot the past few months," he held onto one of your hands and looked at you. "I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I've wanted that since we were kids."

You didn't like where this was going. "Oh Eren, I-"

"Hey," he chuckled. "Let me finish."

"Oh uh, sure."

"Anyways, whenever I think about my future, you're always in it. Y/N, I love you so much. And you're the only person that I ever want to love." his free hand reached into his pocket and pulled out a small object. "So, what do you say? Will you, F/N M/N L/N, marry me?"

You looked down at his hand. In between his thumb and pointed finger was a beautiful diamond ring that must have cost at least a couple thousand dollars. Tears fell down your cheeks as you sat there speechless.

Why? Why is he doing this? We're too young. And I'm... leaving soon.

"I'm sorry Eren, I should have told you this before but.." you looked down at your lap. "I'm leaving. I'm going across seas for college."

"It's okay." He let go of your hand and lifted your chin. "I'm not saying we have to get married right away, I can wait."

"No." you choked out, then standing up. "I can't do this."

"What do you mean?" he asked, tears welling up in his eyes.

"This is insane Eren!" you yelled. "We're way too young to be engaged!"

"But we've been together for over 5 years at this point!" he yelled back.

"I'm sorry, I can't." you quickly threw on your olive green cardigan and brown cross purse.

"Where the hell are you going?!"

"Don't worry about me, I'll walk home," you responded, then slipping on your shoes.

"Fine then! Just leave!" he looked away, not wanting you to see his face and the way you had just broken him. "I don't know why I wanted to marry you in the first place. Maybe it's better if we are apart."

You stood there dumbfounded. What the hell happened to the 'wanting to spend the rest of your lives together' bullshit? His words cut into your body like a knife.

"If that's what you wish," you said, just barely loud enough for him to hear. "Goodbye Eren."

You quickly turned around and walked down the path that would eventually lead you back into the city.

I guess I'll be leaving for college sooner than I thought.

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𝙿𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚃𝚒𝚖𝚎

"I tried contacting you so many times," Eren said looking down. "And the most I got was a secondhand message from Armin or Sasha or whoever, telling me you didn't want to speak. So eventually I gave up."

"That night, it sounded like you didn't want to be with me anymore, so I thought, why bother." A stray tear rolled down your cheek and you quickly wiped it away. "Why try fixing things if you didn't even want to be with me. What if we were just forcing things at that point since we'd known each other forever?"

"Oh come on Y/N." he looked at you. "You know that what you're saying is bullshit. I loved you the whole time we were together. Did you not feel the same way?"

"No, I did." you shook your head and rested it on the elevator wall. You looked up at the ceiling which you had just now realized was a mirror, so you were met with your own image looking back. "You're right, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore."

    Eren let out a sigh. "Can I tell you how I felt?"

    You responded with a nod.

    "I proposed to you because I was expecting that we would spend the rest of our lives together. I mean, it was something we had talked about even as kids! When I had found out that you left a couple of days after without saying a single word, I was crushed." You noticed that tears began to fall on his own face now. "Y/N, you completely broke my heart. It took months to get over that one night."

Your heart hurt from what he was saying. How come you just now realized how much you fucked up? You were such a bitch. Eren didn't deserve anything that you put him through that summer. Your vision was blurred with tears as you refrained from completely breaking down.

Eren continued. "Look, I get that it was a stupid decision to propose to you when we were that young and I'm sorry. But you have to realize that I'm not the only one in the wrong here."

"I-I'm so s-sorry!" you sobbed out, now at your breaking point. "I fucked up, I fucked up big time. You shouldn't be apologizing to me at all. I wish that things could have gone differently."

"Yeah, me too," he admitted. "But it's not like we can change the past."

"Y-yeah." was all you could get out. It felt like you couldn't breathe and were drowning in your tears.

Eren looked at you and his expression softened. He realized that you had probably been bottling up all this guilt for all these years. He got up and sat on the same side of the elevator as you. He then pulled you into a hug. You were surprised and the sudden physical affection only made you cry more. God, you missed him so much. His touch. His presence.

"Hey, it's okay." he comforted you as he held onto you. "We were just kids back then, we both made mistakes, but it's over now. The hurt is over and we can move on, right?"

"Yes, we can."

"So are we good now?" he asked hopefully.

"Yeah, of course, dummy." you laughed.