Holding Me This Way n.h

Chapter 27

* Liz's p.o.v. *

A week later, The boys were all off recording when I received a call from a blocked number. I immediately knew what it meant. And you know what I did?

I answered it.

And everyone is probably thinking, This is the end of her! Good bye, Liz!

But no. I wanted to talk to him.

"Liz, darling. Where are you?" James asked.

"Home." I answered simply.

"Clearly not because you are not home," He chuckled. "Okay, enough of this. Who's house are you at?"

"I'm not saying. You don't deserve to know, James. Can't we be friends like it used to be? If you really cared for me you'd let me go. Let me be happy. Let me have a life of my own. I love you like a big brother, I can count on you to beat people up if they mess with me, not be the one I come home to at night and give a kiss to. It's just not right. Just because we both know it isn't going to work out doesn't mean that I stop caring for you. I still do.. but just... stop. Please." Tears filled my eyes, threatening to spill. "You're mentally killing me, terrifying me. This isn't what you should want."

"Liz." He whispered.

I shook my head, knowing he couldn't see me. For a second I thought he was going to apologize.

"You don't know how badly I want you... The way it used to be."

"James, I'm finally happy. I'm counting on you to respect that. I already think of you as a bad person after everything, even though you may have changed. I don't want you back." The words just spilled from my mouth, truly revealing my feelings and thoughts. It hurt me even, hearing those words be said, and spilled into the open air.

There was another short silence.

"You don't understand...."

"Maybe I don't. Just imagine how I feel." I said softly.

"I'm sorry, just please. You cant just forget about me! If what we had was real how could you be fine?!" He asked, slightly raising his voice.

I winced. "Yell at me, I'm hanging up."

"Sorry. Just answer that?" He pleaded.

"That's the thing, James. I'm not fine. I was dying inside since we broke up. I'm finally happy now with the bad memories in the past. Is that what you want? To make me mourn over you?" I asked.

He didn't answer.

"That's sick." I spit.

"I thought that you forgot about me, so I found you through Liam, thinking if I came back I'd make you remember everything we've had." He admitted.

"I didn't want to! I'm offering instead of erasing you completely, at least staying in contact as friends. Isn't that enough? Please. I didn't file a restraint, I haven't even contacted any authority. I'm giving you more chances than you deserve." I said.

"You should just call the authority! Get me locked away, Liz!" He sobbed.

"No. I wouldn't do that. Just we'll be friends okay. But that's all?" I asked.

"Okay. Okay. I am so sorry. I didn't even know what I caused you. I didn't think at the time. I had no idea. I can't live with myself. I'm sorry." He cried.

"I learned to forgive and forget. You should too. Maybe this weekend we could do something, yeah?" I asked, secretly smiling to myself. We're getting somewhere....

"Yeah. Wait.. a-are you sure? I mean after everything?" He stuttered.

"I'm sure, James." I smiled.

"Thank you so much. Seriously." He sniffed.

"You're welcome. Good bye James." I said sweetly.

"Good Bye, Liz." He said, and we hung up.

When I said it was a big lift off of my shoulders before, nothing could compare to this. I let out a breath, texting Niall asking when he'd be home. And the answer was soon.

I sighed not being able to contain myself anymore. I had to tell Niall about everything and I missed him.

Knowing I couldn't go to the studio, I decided to take a nap, letting time pass quicker than before.

A while later I was woken by the bed dipping and arms being wrapped around me from behind. I immediately pulled them closer.

"Hello, gorgeous." He said. I could feel him smile on the back of my neck as he planted multiple kisses there.

I turned around, pulling him in for a kiss, my hands cupping his cheeks. It was a sweet kiss, letting him know I was ecstatic at the moment.

He pulled away smiling brightly. "Are you okay?"

"Fantastic. Just seriously perfect." I smiled, wrapping my arms around him putting my face into his neck.

"Tell me what happened, babe." He grinned, pulling me impossibly closer.

I spilled the whole story to him, not missing any details.

"Really!? That's great, love! We have to be careful you know... Just in case. You are not getting hurt again." He said.

"I know and I agree. Still after this we have to be cautious. But I'm just so glad everything is okay. James isn't gone but finally settled, I'm home, and back with you. I couldn't be happier. Niall, I love you." I said.

"I love you more, Liz." He said, pecking my cheek. "I'm so happy I could get you back. I lost every chance I had. I thought you'd never forgive me. But look at us now. Strong, perfect, happy. I can finally say I get to come home to this beautiful girl every night."

"Niall James you could write a book." I laughed.

"More like a song. And actually, I wrote one for you today. It was gonna be a surprise but I can't keep my mouth shut."

"Are you serious?" I gasped.

"Of course! It's not hard when you know exactly how you feel about that person. It was so easy writing about you." He said softly, reaching down to clasp my hand with his.

"When can I hear it?" I asked.

"When it comes out." He snickered.

I lightly hit his arm. "Niall! Not funny."

"Sorry. You can hear it when it's finished. It just wrote it today, it's not recorded or anything. I missed you so I came home early."

"So the rest of the boys are still there while you're here being lazy?" I asked.

"If you wanted me to leave you could have just said so......." He motioned to get up, making me pull him down quickly.

"No!"

He doubled over in laughter. "I was kidding! You are the cutest thing I have ever seen in my life."

"I know." I smirked. "Sleep with me for a little bit? Then I'll get up and make dinner."

"That is the best idea I've heard in a long time." He smiled, pulling the blanket over us.

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Hey guys! It's my birthday today so I wanted to give a present instead of receiving one! (:

Quick little thing. I'm sure you've seen the group/solo DMs on Twitter. Do you guys have any? I have a solo Niall and Liam. (:

Sadly, this book is coming to an end. It's kinda short... But I have big plans for news stories! I hope after this you all stick with me.

Again, Thank you sooooooooooooooooooooo much for everything and I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!

Also enjoy that SEXYYY picture of Niall that killed us all.

@Sweetlikenjh

Stay Sassy

-Liz