Chapter 18.
- You won't change in the future, right?
- Change what?
- Change your feelings.
- Why do you have such thoughts, of course I will never leave you - Siyeon worried in her heart, she now knows that in Bora's mind, still afraid of being hurt by her, perhaps because Bora suffered the abandonment of too many people.
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- No matter what, the one who always moves towards you, will always be me, only me.
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- When you left a breakup message, I was very upset, I thought you chose family, not me.
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- I lose sleep every night, I have to depend on alcohol to sleep better. Now you are here with me, my life is really complete, I will take care of you with everything I have.
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- So don't worry, is it okay?
- ……….
- Or ... do I need to change anything to make you feel more secure? - Siyeon was reserved. Bora's eyes glittered with tears, rolling down her chubby cheeks, she hugged Siyeon tightly, as if wanting to keep it to herself, as if she would lose it if she let go.
- I’m ... so lucky ... to have you - Bora said in difficulty, from crying too much, her tears, suffering from a disease that could not escape it.
During the time at that mansion, after seeing Siyeon's shoulder hurt, Bora felt like her soul was dead, couldn't live anymore, couldn't cry, couldn't even scream. All parts of the body are tired, do not want to work. Until she met Siyeon again, Bora was surprised but not much, she thought that her grandmother intervened and brought Siyeon to see her, Siyeon took care of her because she was sick, that's simple, so Bora couldn't do more. Whatever Siyeon wants, she will respond, but the flow of emotions trapped in her heart still cannot escape.
Up until now, because of Siyeon's overflowing love, her ideal indulgence, her brave sacrifice, Bora burst into tears.
She couldn't do anything for Siyeon, she appeared in Siyeon’s life from beginning to end, making Siyeon work harder. In the family, she was considered harmless, the thing she was most proud of was that she successfully took care of Lisa by her father's money, to cultivate a love story with Lisa, for Lisa’s career. Well, that was the only thing she could do for someone.
Now that she cannot do anything for her family, she is abandoned, she lives in the Kim’s mansion as a wasted, free and useless person, and when she is with Siyeon, Bora also feels like that, but Siyeon did not leave her, every passing day Siyeon was always busy thinking of how to take care of her more, without complaining. Whether it sounds reasonable or not, Siyeon has not come to her in a year, Siyeon’s love is strong, but whether it is durable.
Those were all Bora's lines of thought when she was alone, and she kept binding herself in those thoughts, without telling Siyeon, she only implicitly showed off her drawings, Because if she doesn't draw, she doesn't have room to exhaust, she will have a headache to death.
And she hopes that, after this crying match, her heart will lighten a bit, the worry that Siyeon is denying ...
- Bora ... .. - Siyeon said when she saw that Bora had been quiet for a while, Bora cried loudly, the arms still hugging her.
In the document, it said that, if crying, is a good sign, let her let it go, Siyeon will accept it all, endure it all, to make Bora get better. Bora remained silent, Siyeon couldn't see her face, so Siyeon was curious about the current Bora's thoughts.
She tilted Bora’s face, buried herself against the nape of Bora, took a deep breath, she didn't know how Bora was feeling, but in this moment, it was really peaceful.
- Baby, let's go ashore, skin is all soft.
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A few days later, Tzuyu went to Siyeon and Bora's warm house as scheduled in the text, a few hours earlier, Siyeon informed Bora that a doctor came, she reacted, protested, and wanted to hide in room.
Siyeon worked very hard to invite a good person like Chou Tzuyu to come here, can not say cancel and cancel, she tried to persuade Bora, her emotions were so high so the words were not very selective, it seems Siyeon mistakenly told Bora again….
- NO - Bora shouted, Siyeon was startled to hug her ear, this scream not only hurt her eardrums, but also hurt her heart.
- Bora, this doctor is a female, very young, very pretty, and good at being at the top of Taiwan too, everything will be fine.
- LET ME ALONE - Bora struggled, got rid of Siyeon's grip and went into the bedroom. Siyeon followed inside, sitting on the bed watching Bora turn the back on her, tears streaming down her eyes. After confirming her date with Tzuyu for the past few days, Siyeon wanted to tell Bora, but she was so afraid Bora wouldn't agree until it was time to report it, and in the end, Bora still didn't agree.
Siyeon helplessly cried, her hiccuping sound made Bora turn back, Bora looked at her thoughtfully, pursed the lips, then jumped up to hug her.
- Don't cry anymore - Bora said, making Siyeon not want to hold back a bit, Kim Bora was stubborn.
- Do you know how hard I work to ask the doctor, you brushed my efforts, you want me sad to death? - Lee Siyeon said loudly, unable to control her words for the first time, she let go of the things she had suppressed for so long.
Kim Bora panicked, hugging Siyeon's thin body tightly, rubbing Siyeon’s back, she had to comfort someone for the first time, but it didn't work, the more she coaxed, the louder Siyeon into crying, how…
Kim Bora, for the first time in a hurry, she blinked, licking her lips, her brain suddenly had to operate at full capacity, how to calm the other person, what to say now. Sorry? Thanks? or say love?….
Then, later on, Bora remembered the reason why Siyeon was crying.
- ... ... so ... .. when will the doctor come?
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Tzuyu entered Siyeon's house with a warm smile, together with an interpreter girl, Chou Tzuyu has the charisma like a classy lady, so she rarely smiles, smiles only smiles, but yes, she being a reputable doctor, there is a doctor whose face is serious.
Siyeon was initially a bit worried that she wouldn't make a compromise with Tzuyu, but also succeeded, so she was very happy. Siyeon showed Tzuyu the bedroom where Bora was sitting, because Tzuyu said the process needed a small, quiet space, then bedroom would be the most suitable.
When Siyeon and Tzuyu and the staff came in, Siyeon introduced Tzuyu to Bora and vice versa. Bora didn't react at all, and Tzuyu lightly let out a sentence that stopped her heart.
- The examination process needs to be private, so please go out for a bit, lock the door.
Siyeon was surprised, looking at Bora not wanting to leave, Bora's gaze also showed that, but Tzuyu's gaze was extremely determined, standing like statue for a while and Siyeon finally regretfully went out.
End chapter 18
