The Stars I Wrote with Your Name

100

He, obviously just a regular man. Lives in a small apartment that felt spacious for some reasons. Even after he brought that fluffy creature inside his apartment room, he still; felt empty. One day, he writes nothing but sad song whilst taking a glance towards the busiest night in Seoul.

"I can't do this" he mumbled to himself.

So with that, was almost midnight he decided to stroll down. Leaving his pet sleeping in his cage, leaving his bedroom with lights off.

The street was busy, so much crowded even though it is almost hit midnight. Perhaps it's because of weekend? He could careless about it, actually. Both of his hands shoved inside his pocket, eyes wandering around crowdy street, his stomach grumbling in hunger when he catch various smells from foods street truck. He stopped right in front of ice cream place, sudden thoughts went in to fill his head, he saw empty chairs on the left side of the store. He remembers, that one night where he finally get to feel that his heart full; stomach filled with thousands of butterflies. Oh, to be in love with someone while having ice cream date; or was it really a date or just a mere accompanion?

He stood there, not knowing that seconds even minutes passed. And when he came into a realization, that he didn't want to because daydreaming about a young man with stars all over his cheeks felt so nice for him. He stopped daydreaming as he saw the young man, coming out of his daydream; even in a crowdy place, he, always be the one that caught his eyes.

His heart thumping, but his legs can't stop moving on it's own. They know, what does he want, he wants to meet him. He was just in denial. As he stood almost near him, but his lips shuts tight suddenly. As if, his words stucks inside his throat. He was just there; standing, admiring, until the younger one turned around and he can see him widening his eyes to his view.

"Hajoon?" The younger one called out, God, he has no idea how much that do things inside him; he might almost melt down onto the floor, how he misses the younger's voice eversince that one night they spent to have that silly ice cream date.

"Felix..." He greeted, mostly like a mumble. The blonde guy chuckled to his awkwardness. Perhaps he already get used to it.

"What are you doing here?" Felix asked, his eyes wandering around him; just in case he was with someone else.

"Just.. taking a walk.." The older one answered, with timid voice; almost shaky even. He somehow looks pale at first, it made Felix frowned his eyebrows; just when he was about to reach out, his bandmates called for him, the younger one shouted back, asking them to wait.

"Hajoon, I am so happy to see you here again. I want to stay for awhile but I am with-"

"It's alright" Hajoon stopped the younger one from talking more, causing him to frown even more. Just when he was about to open his lips again, Hajoon cut his off again; with shaky voice but also the last braveness inside him, he, mostly almost shouted,

"It's my birthday in a week. Would you- would you like to come for a visit?" He can feel that his ear ringing, he heard nothing but the sound of his surroundings faded into a heavy silence; the only things he can hear is his own thumping heart. His face heated, hoping the younger one didn't notice.

"I will" Felix answered, and with that, Hajoon's surroundings starts to sound normal; people chanting, laughing with the sound of people walking.

"You will?"

"Of course I will. I'll make time for you"

The brunette haired man felt nothing but sparks of joy inside him, and relief of course. Just by imagining how his loved one to stay in for him surely excites him. All the denial he'd been keeping to himself now is ready to get rid, he can't deny to it any longer.

He, in fact, falling in love with Felix.

And today, as he woke up in his bed finding no one but his lover, sleeping so peacefully with his blanket on him. He surely felt the luckiest. As he was getting ready for his work, he took a glance to the calendar, to a small reminder beside it written with his own writing. His lover still in his deep sleep, of course. And he has no heart to wake him up.

So when he get ready, he put an envelope on top of his bedroom's table. Hoping the younger one would wake up and read the letters after before he leaving small kiss on his love's forehead; leaving for work after.

"Dear my Eve...

100 days before today I claimed you as mine in a so not cool way but you still accept me for whoever I am. To you, who still willing to love the same until today, I am so thankful for that. I know I can't really do fancy things to give a special gifts for you but I just wish that we stay together for a really long time.

Because there is never a forever.
But I surely want to cherish every single moments I spend with you. I love seeing you laugh, you chatters, you rambling about your favorite things. I love you for a whole of you.

Just so you know, you are my almost first.
So when I wake up, I prioritize you first as well.

Happy 100 days of being mine.
Thank you for staying here.
I love you so much more than I love Olie.

p.s. Don't tell Olie about this.

Yours truly, xx
Arden."